Being a fool
So its like 720ish ona tuesday night, and i just finished writing one of two gened papers i have due on thursday. God that class is a bitch. Anyways, i am taking a homework break so i thought id take a hot second and write something up in here.
I was just sitting back last night, thinking about what a few people have said to me. that they think i have changed, and a lot of it has been for the worse. And than i began thinking to myself, what about me has changed. then it came to me that i didn't really care if i had changed, because i have never really been happier at any time in my life than the time i have spent here in Pullman. Its a shithole, piece of nothing town, yet i absolutely love it here. It doesn't feel like home to me, and it probably never will be, but its as if im on a 4 year vacation with people i like, and lots of cool shit to do. SO if i have changed, who really cares? I mean, sure im probably not as understanding as i used to be, or as a good of a listener at time. But shit happens. And so what if i drink a couple nights a week, or smoke the occasional blunt, its my body and i have to deal with what it does. So if you don't like who im becoming, that is your perogative, but its who i am now. Im not going to change back into the shy little fat kid some of you used to know. Or even too what i was last year.. A kid on the outskirts of a lot of groups, but never really part of any. Here i found i place i belong, with people who accept me and if you all can't do the same, then fuck you, and just leave me alone.
Okay that was my rant of the month. I just felt i had to get it off my chest and let everyone know that.
ANyways.
I gotta get back to homework, so im out.
I was just sitting back last night, thinking about what a few people have said to me. that they think i have changed, and a lot of it has been for the worse. And than i began thinking to myself, what about me has changed. then it came to me that i didn't really care if i had changed, because i have never really been happier at any time in my life than the time i have spent here in Pullman. Its a shithole, piece of nothing town, yet i absolutely love it here. It doesn't feel like home to me, and it probably never will be, but its as if im on a 4 year vacation with people i like, and lots of cool shit to do. SO if i have changed, who really cares? I mean, sure im probably not as understanding as i used to be, or as a good of a listener at time. But shit happens. And so what if i drink a couple nights a week, or smoke the occasional blunt, its my body and i have to deal with what it does. So if you don't like who im becoming, that is your perogative, but its who i am now. Im not going to change back into the shy little fat kid some of you used to know. Or even too what i was last year.. A kid on the outskirts of a lot of groups, but never really part of any. Here i found i place i belong, with people who accept me and if you all can't do the same, then fuck you, and just leave me alone.
Okay that was my rant of the month. I just felt i had to get it off my chest and let everyone know that.
ANyways.
I gotta get back to homework, so im out.