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I keep feeling this increadable surge of frustration...regret...something. Mostly frustration. And I know what it is. I don't wanna give up. I wanna go back...back step..fix it and make it all better. Cept I know I can't. That's why I stopped in the first place. I just have to keep telling myself..."you made the right decision"..."you did the right thing" you ARE doing the right thing!
That's what matters. That's how things work. You stick through the tough parts and you get it done. get through the tough spots..get through the day...day by day...right?
If it were meant to be any other way, things would be dif. Everyone would be misserable. But it can't be the wrong thing if everyone is happy...cept me. Course I'm never happy. I'm a malcontent. I'm not misserable. I'm not trying to be a downer. Things are ok. Better than they've been in a while. Bills are paid up, got a new laptop, some movies, dvd player...found a new phone, it's 400 bucks. I'll get it as soon as they fix mine. Just cause I want the replacement in case i want that model back and my warrenty expires. Got enough money to take a lil vacation. I wanted to take it on my birthday, but now it's honestly like what's the point. I'm just blah about it now. Like why go anywhere. Hell, I still wanna go somewhere for my birthday. I just don't think I have the nerve/heart for there anymore.
That's what matters. That's how things work. You stick through the tough parts and you get it done. get through the tough spots..get through the day...day by day...right?
If it were meant to be any other way, things would be dif. Everyone would be misserable. But it can't be the wrong thing if everyone is happy...cept me. Course I'm never happy. I'm a malcontent. I'm not misserable. I'm not trying to be a downer. Things are ok. Better than they've been in a while. Bills are paid up, got a new laptop, some movies, dvd player...found a new phone, it's 400 bucks. I'll get it as soon as they fix mine. Just cause I want the replacement in case i want that model back and my warrenty expires. Got enough money to take a lil vacation. I wanted to take it on my birthday, but now it's honestly like what's the point. I'm just blah about it now. Like why go anywhere. Hell, I still wanna go somewhere for my birthday. I just don't think I have the nerve/heart for there anymore.