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so this weekend i helped renee move into school. made me realise how much i miss college. i think thats why most people go 4 years. that seems abo right. i think i would feel done after 4 years. but i has 2 1/2. deffinately wasn't done with the whole living in dorms and not working alot thing.
renee is really nervus about being so far away from me. she keeps saying things to me like "what if you find someone better." which is just silly to me because i can't even imagine someone being even as awesome as renee, let alone better. and besides i've done the whole 3 hours thing before with heather. then like 2 hours with val. so i guess i'm an expert in the opnly seeing your girlfriend once a week or 2. so all weekend i was ok. i wasn't excited or anything. i don't LIe the fact that i don't get to see her everyday, but i was alright. i don't think that help renee much. when you are freaking out about maybe loosing your love and they seem alright it just freaks you out more, like they don't care if they loose you. which was not the case at all.
in fact it's kinda funny (not really funny HAHA) that my mood may have had that effect on her, because her fear of loosing me, to me, is just more proof that i mean alot to her, which makes me even more happy. does that make sence? did i spell sence right?
we played mario cart together. that was great. i've always wanted to play video games with my girlfriend. i had always played smash bros. with ben and alison and been sooo jelous that his girlfriend liked video games. ok, here's how much of a boy i am, to me one of the most romantic things is lovers playing a 2 player game together laughing and giving eachother playful shuves. sooooo great. thats love. no i'm not crazy, i'm romantic, it's like lovers holding hands ice skating. get it?
ok, so then there was the drive home. suddenly everything felt so familier. the long goodbye, the 3 hour drive home while the sun's going down, knowing it'll be at least a week till i see her agian. suddenly it was heather and val all over again and i remembered that soon the distence would be too much ( not for me but for them) and the goodbyes wouldn't be so long and the hello's wont seems so urgent, and then they're gone. they don't love me anymore. needless to say, i started freaking out. i love her so much. i wanted to call someone but i had left my cel phone on all weekend and it was dead. so i sat there wicked depressed and scared. ahve you ever been so close to crying but it just wont come? kinda like a sneeze that is being a jerk and teasing you. not fun
so band wrote a new song. it rules, that brings the "songs jared needs to write lyrics for" list to 3. crappy
jim renews my soul. seriously.
i hate my job
renee is really nervus about being so far away from me. she keeps saying things to me like "what if you find someone better." which is just silly to me because i can't even imagine someone being even as awesome as renee, let alone better. and besides i've done the whole 3 hours thing before with heather. then like 2 hours with val. so i guess i'm an expert in the opnly seeing your girlfriend once a week or 2. so all weekend i was ok. i wasn't excited or anything. i don't LIe the fact that i don't get to see her everyday, but i was alright. i don't think that help renee much. when you are freaking out about maybe loosing your love and they seem alright it just freaks you out more, like they don't care if they loose you. which was not the case at all.
in fact it's kinda funny (not really funny HAHA) that my mood may have had that effect on her, because her fear of loosing me, to me, is just more proof that i mean alot to her, which makes me even more happy. does that make sence? did i spell sence right?
we played mario cart together. that was great. i've always wanted to play video games with my girlfriend. i had always played smash bros. with ben and alison and been sooo jelous that his girlfriend liked video games. ok, here's how much of a boy i am, to me one of the most romantic things is lovers playing a 2 player game together laughing and giving eachother playful shuves. sooooo great. thats love. no i'm not crazy, i'm romantic, it's like lovers holding hands ice skating. get it?
ok, so then there was the drive home. suddenly everything felt so familier. the long goodbye, the 3 hour drive home while the sun's going down, knowing it'll be at least a week till i see her agian. suddenly it was heather and val all over again and i remembered that soon the distence would be too much ( not for me but for them) and the goodbyes wouldn't be so long and the hello's wont seems so urgent, and then they're gone. they don't love me anymore. needless to say, i started freaking out. i love her so much. i wanted to call someone but i had left my cel phone on all weekend and it was dead. so i sat there wicked depressed and scared. ahve you ever been so close to crying but it just wont come? kinda like a sneeze that is being a jerk and teasing you. not fun
so band wrote a new song. it rules, that brings the "songs jared needs to write lyrics for" list to 3. crappy
jim renews my soul. seriously.
i hate my job