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so much stuff has happend to me. like...life changing stuff
i'll start with band stuff which requires rewinding alittle
remember the traip show? so my brother josh went to it. he just wanted to check out my band (like any good brother would do).
let me explain something about joshua wilbur. he is a super succsessful freakin grammy nominated engineer / producer. which is what i want to be. he has always supported me in my quest to be a producer but at the same time has kinda pressured me as well. for like the past 4 years i've had this rock solid plan. go to college, work and save money, move to NYC. it's pretty much stayed unchanged. the move to NYC part was supposted to happen this coming september. but josh has always wanted things to happen sooner. like when wanted to go to college for 4 years he was like "dude yoiu only need 2, just go 2 years and get you ass down here to new york". and so i went 2 and 1/2. when i desided i need to to stay around till sept. to save some moneyt he was like "i guess so dude but i really think you should just get down here now". the past 4 years have been filled with that kinda thing
so band to the traip show. after the show he was heading out and all he had a chance to say was "you guys were awesome man! but me and nate thought he was just humoring us. later that night when i got home the first thing i asked him was "is my band good enough for me to take seriously?" then he said "yes deffinately. in fact, you know what you should do? you shouild hold off on moving to new york and stick around here with your band and get yourself a following and get a bigger catalog of songs, and maybe i'll sign you to my production team." NOT MOVE TO NEW YORK!? is this my brother? all it took was that couple of sentances to take my rock solid plans and totally crumble them. now don't get me wrong. i'm wicked stoked, this is like a dream. but for the first time in YEARS i don't know what i'm doing.
so then a week later josh comes home for the weekend and asks if we have a practice that weekend. we did and he said he wanted to go and have a meeting with the band after. so at this meeting he said he thought it over and he wants to sign us to oxford snow kings productions and totally work with us. on everything. songs, look, stage show, everything. he wants to produce our demo like this or next month, help us build a following around new england, then when we are ready (maybe a year from now ) produce a ful album and shop it to major lables.
it was great to watch mikes face though that whole talk, it was like total deer-in-head-lights the whole time.
so now here i am. still in my dads house, with a dream that could happen. but in the mean time i've basicly signed myself off to being a bum for a year. a college graduate living at my dads place working a shitty job trying to "make it". thats pretty scary. i dunno. i thing my band is really good and everything. but i don't think we are as good as josh seems to think we are. acually its more like I'M not as good as he thinks I am. my band is incredible. me? i dunno. i'm no daryl or mike.
the other thing thats crazy in my life is the fact that i'm in the process of falling in love again. every moment i'm with renee i'm totally.....amazed. yeah thats a good word for it. wheni go a day without seeing her it feels wasted. in fact i'm waiting for her right now, and i'm giddy.
ex's.... sometimes i feel like my life is run by my exgirlfriends. a couple weeks ago i just got off the phone with becky and then talked to heather, val, and christie online all at once. so weird. i talked to christie on the phone the other night, she seems to be doing well. she doesn't hangout with us much anymmore which bumms me out. but i guess its for the best consitering we're boring. she has a new dude. i hope he's as awesome as she deserves.
also called val last night. hadn't really talked to her for like 2 months. told her all about renee. felt really good. she toild me thatthings with dustin were kinda tough right now. now don't get me wrong, i really really care about val, and i want her to be happy. buit when it comes to dustin i've totally given up and i'm now living for me. i hope they go down in flames. so i'm so torn when she talks about things not being perfect with him. 50% of me is genuanly sorry for her and 50% couldn't be happier. i'm so evil. but all that aside it felt great to hear from her. she's coiming home next week. maybe she'll squeeze me into her schedual.
i know i have more to say but i'm tired of typing
i'll start with band stuff which requires rewinding alittle
remember the traip show? so my brother josh went to it. he just wanted to check out my band (like any good brother would do).
let me explain something about joshua wilbur. he is a super succsessful freakin grammy nominated engineer / producer. which is what i want to be. he has always supported me in my quest to be a producer but at the same time has kinda pressured me as well. for like the past 4 years i've had this rock solid plan. go to college, work and save money, move to NYC. it's pretty much stayed unchanged. the move to NYC part was supposted to happen this coming september. but josh has always wanted things to happen sooner. like when wanted to go to college for 4 years he was like "dude yoiu only need 2, just go 2 years and get you ass down here to new york". and so i went 2 and 1/2. when i desided i need to to stay around till sept. to save some moneyt he was like "i guess so dude but i really think you should just get down here now". the past 4 years have been filled with that kinda thing
so band to the traip show. after the show he was heading out and all he had a chance to say was "you guys were awesome man! but me and nate thought he was just humoring us. later that night when i got home the first thing i asked him was "is my band good enough for me to take seriously?" then he said "yes deffinately. in fact, you know what you should do? you shouild hold off on moving to new york and stick around here with your band and get yourself a following and get a bigger catalog of songs, and maybe i'll sign you to my production team." NOT MOVE TO NEW YORK!? is this my brother? all it took was that couple of sentances to take my rock solid plans and totally crumble them. now don't get me wrong. i'm wicked stoked, this is like a dream. but for the first time in YEARS i don't know what i'm doing.
so then a week later josh comes home for the weekend and asks if we have a practice that weekend. we did and he said he wanted to go and have a meeting with the band after. so at this meeting he said he thought it over and he wants to sign us to oxford snow kings productions and totally work with us. on everything. songs, look, stage show, everything. he wants to produce our demo like this or next month, help us build a following around new england, then when we are ready (maybe a year from now ) produce a ful album and shop it to major lables.
it was great to watch mikes face though that whole talk, it was like total deer-in-head-lights the whole time.
so now here i am. still in my dads house, with a dream that could happen. but in the mean time i've basicly signed myself off to being a bum for a year. a college graduate living at my dads place working a shitty job trying to "make it". thats pretty scary. i dunno. i thing my band is really good and everything. but i don't think we are as good as josh seems to think we are. acually its more like I'M not as good as he thinks I am. my band is incredible. me? i dunno. i'm no daryl or mike.
the other thing thats crazy in my life is the fact that i'm in the process of falling in love again. every moment i'm with renee i'm totally.....amazed. yeah thats a good word for it. wheni go a day without seeing her it feels wasted. in fact i'm waiting for her right now, and i'm giddy.
ex's.... sometimes i feel like my life is run by my exgirlfriends. a couple weeks ago i just got off the phone with becky and then talked to heather, val, and christie online all at once. so weird. i talked to christie on the phone the other night, she seems to be doing well. she doesn't hangout with us much anymmore which bumms me out. but i guess its for the best consitering we're boring. she has a new dude. i hope he's as awesome as she deserves.
also called val last night. hadn't really talked to her for like 2 months. told her all about renee. felt really good. she toild me thatthings with dustin were kinda tough right now. now don't get me wrong, i really really care about val, and i want her to be happy. buit when it comes to dustin i've totally given up and i'm now living for me. i hope they go down in flames. so i'm so torn when she talks about things not being perfect with him. 50% of me is genuanly sorry for her and 50% couldn't be happier. i'm so evil. but all that aside it felt great to hear from her. she's coiming home next week. maybe she'll squeeze me into her schedual.
i know i have more to say but i'm tired of typing