Feb 05, 2009 22:14
So everyone knows that me and Topher have been dating for seven months now. Our relationship isnt perfect. We fight alot, we cause drama, we scream and yell till were blue in the face. I have found out from many people that they dont understand why we are still together. All they ever do is see us fight and they cant understand why we have lasted so long and why we havnt killed each other yet.
I laugh at those people because they dont understand how much me and Topher love each other. They dont see what goes on behind the scene's, they dont see how much we really do love and care about each other. Just because we fight does not mean that were not ment for each other. Our relationship isnt perfect but its a damn good one and I will do everything in my power to make people and Topher understand that.Topher and I broke up yesterday morning and now I am going to prove/tell everyone why me and Topher belong together and why I love him so much.
Reason's that I love him and want him in my life
Topher is a sweet and caring person. I knew from the minute that we had our first date at benagins that he was the one for me. Weither I admited it to anyone, eeven him, I knew it was the truth. When ever I went any where with Topher, when it was just me and him, he would look at me with those eyes, that smile and that cute little face/embarossed look that he does and it just melts me inside. He has this look that he gives me.... It goes deep into me and just fills me with so much joy. I have not seen that look in quite sometime now and it is killing me inside. That look of joy I need it and he needs mine. Even though you might not want to admit it out loud Topher, you miss the same look that I do. That look , to me, is one of the many reasons that I love you.
You make me feel so good inside Topher. You go out of your way to do things for me. You turn off the lights, you get me water, you even bring me home suprises all the time and I love it when you do. I on the other hand, dont really do that much for you in that reguards. I need to improve. Topher I need to show you that I can be the best boyfriend you ever had. I want to be able to bring you home gifts and food with out you even asking. I want to be the one to get you water and turn off the light. I want to have a chance to prove to you that I can be the best.
You as a person are so amazing. Your such a unique individual and thats why I fell head over heals for you and you are worth so much to me. I need to prove to you that I can be the man you always wanted. I want to be able to do everything that I can to make you understand that I love you. Your the first thing that I want to see every morning and it was hell waking up and not seeing your face. Knowing that I might not have you ever again might kill me inside. I have done so many things wrong but I want to be able to fix everything and be the person that I can be.
Chris I love and you'll live in my heart forever. I love you till the end
James
P.s. Sorry if it didnt make any sense. I am crying and it sucks and my brother is kicking me off and this letter comes no where close to how I really feel for you. I am sorry