Lost Friendships

Oct 18, 2008 17:24

What happens with friends? I have had a long and consistent history of falling out of friendships slowly and with no other cause than lack of communication. The annoying part is that there is no moment of turning around and realizing that I have not spoken to someone in years; I know it is happening the entire time. But I give the time it takes to keep relationships to other things. Years go by and I end up far away from people I dearly love.

I believe that part of my problem is that I am not good at communication unless it is in person. I can talk to a person and enjoy being with people (to an extent) but, even in the age of Facebook, I hardly drop someone a note or ask how they are doing. Letters are beyond me.

If a long-ago friend writes me a letter or an email I take months to write them back. There is actually one sitting in my inbox now, and I am choosing to spend the time talking to myself here than writing her back. Why is that? Does anybody know?

It makes me sad. I know or knew all of these wonderful people out in the world somewhere and I miss them. I remember the time I had with them and I want to know why I drift away so quickly. I have never felt attached to any place except Guatemala. Every other place I have been has been nothing but a place. When I move away I rarely take anything emotional with me. Places are just places.

Guatemala stands as the lone exception. Today I received an update from Mary Margaret and it brought back the memories and emotions. They are stronger than I expected, and I began to severely miss certain people that I have no contact with anymore. I miss the Scotts. I miss Joseph. I miss my dear cousin Abby. For one week they were my family. And now they are in completely separate lives.

personal, guatemala, friends, friendships

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