I'm So Sorry
I am very soory for not updating. Incase you were wondering, I am in Florida right now, not altogether happy but I'm here. My dad unfortunately is not but I did get to see my Grandmother. For an update on the shit that has been happeing, I am going to use posts from my blog on myspace.
Start from the bottom and work your way up.
It's long so bare with me.Loans, DDR and Hot Topic
Well on Sunday, I went to the mall with Caleb, John and two other people and that mall is huge, we were there for 3 hours and there are still places we haven't seen yet. We didn't get to the food court, we went to a Taco Bell in front of the mall.
While there I, got a call from my older brother Joe who told me that our childhood friends from California (Samayah and Hershey, yes those are their real names) are going to a school in Connecticut, possibly even my school which is very cool.
I also bought this cute outfit from Hot Topic. Caleb wanted to pay for it but I wanted something else to be my gift so we went to the bookstore.
There he bought my volumes 5-9 of Boys Over Flowers (Hana Yori Dango). And he said when I get back to school I should be expected the first season of inuyasha for my birthday. All I got him was a teeshirt that said "My trip to Florida was so expensive, all I could afford was a teeshirt"
He thought it was very funny.
We left the mall at like 6 and then we went to this club in Miami. I got back to my unkles house around 1 in the morning.
Yesterday I went to this huge shopping center called the Swap Shop and sepnt about 3 hours playing DDR with a bunch of people and then I watched the Circus, a few of people who were playing the game with me are in the Circus. No they are not clowns, there're acrobats and one of them is the National Hollahoop champion. She's very cool.
I got to the Swap Shop at about 12:30 but I didn't leave until 6.
I had a lot of fun yesterday and i may go again today but right now i have a bunch of loans to fill out. I only owe 1022 dollars for next semester not counting lab fees. So I'm getting a loan for 1400 to pay my tuition as well as to pay for books and maybe even to get into the good hall. I need 250 to get into the Apartment Suite.
Currently listening:
Satellite
By P.O.D.
Release date: By 11 September, 2001
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Saturday, December 25, 2004
Christmas Day
I spent the better part of this day with mad (crazy) relatives and the only cool thing that happened today was that I got to see Cup of Russia (Figure Skatting Championships) and yes I do watch figure skating, but I only watch the couples and the guys. My fav skaters are Jhonny Wier and Evgeny Plushenko. One is Russian and the other American but they both train in CT and I got to meet the both of them through a friend of mine who skates. They were really nice.
I only got one gift and that was from my grandmother, the one person I really wanted to see when I came out here.
Tomorrow I am going to the mall with me mates, (Caleb, John and his new person). Caleb and i have agreed to be just friends. I'd rather have him as a friend then go through the whole long distance thing again.
I have not been writing lately but I have been drawing. Sense Ceramics is full next semester, I may go for the drawing class. I already have a portfolio I could show the professor too.
Well I have to go, need sleep for big day tomorrow.
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Thursday, December 23, 2004
Caleb
Current mood: confused
I spent the last few hours hanging out with Caleb, John and his latest sqeeze at the Fort Laduerdale Swap Shop playing DDR and watching the Circus. I of course was very caucious being that I am afriad of clowns. Luckily everything was acrobatic so no clowns. I'd rather not freak out and have a spaz attack in front of Caleb.
Nothing has changed on the Caleb front. We talked for about a an hour, well we argued more like. Though I still have feelings for him I am not the same person I was 4 months ago and a lot has changed. I also found out that he has been reading my blogs(Behind my back) so he knows about the other guys. Well the only one that matters is Mike from the show. The others I don't really have feelings for. As far as I know Caleb has not been with anyone and I believe him because female contact is scarce at West Point. There aren't many girls enrolled at his school.
I told Caleb that though I do still have feelings for him, I cannot say right now that I want to get together. I need time, lots of time.
I told him that we need to just hang out as friends so that I can get to know him again. He still harbors some jeaously over the whole John thing because John did admit to liking me and he did indeed tell me about the threesome to get me to break up with Caleb. He and Caleb didn't speak for weeks by the way. Calebtold me that he hated the fact that John got to spend all that time with me over th summer and he was stuck in Cali on family issues. Then he admitted to sleeping with those girls to kind of get back at me for not listening to him.
You see after June when Caleb first left for Cali, he told me not to spend too much time with John because he didn't think it was fare for John to see me when Caleb could not. But I couldn't keep John from coming over my cousin's house or running into to him in Manhattan and I cetainly could not stop John from telling Caleb that we were still hanging out. It was a whole big mess but the thing that made Caleb really angry was when he found out that John had bought me this DVD Box set of Love Hina, something I told Caleb I wanted for Christmas because it was coming out around that time but John being the guy with many connections was able to get the Japanese version of it. Caleb was livid with me and John. It wasn't till then that Caleb had the threesome.
So much fucking drama eh?
I cannot be blammed for the way things turned out and I understand that he does trully care for me and is sorry for hurting me. I just don't know if I want to rush back into a relationship with him espcially with all the things going on at school, the fact that during school we can only see each once of twice a month and there is John to consider.
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I can't believe it!
Current mood: confused
Of all the people I thought I'd see when I was out here, my ex was the last I thought. My ex is this 21 year old guy who goes to West Point Millitary School. Now this guy cheated on me with two girls (Had a threesome) while he was away on Holiday in California. But it wasn't him who told me, it was his best friend John. While Caleb (Thatis his name) was away in Cali, I was in New York with John for most of the summer and we hung out a lot. Caleb was getting really pissed about it and he wanted me to stop hanging out with him so much so I told John and John told me about the threesoome.
At first I didn't believe it but then I confronted Caleb and he admitted to doing it. He said he was going to tell me himself but he didn't want to do it over the phone or on the net, he wanted to do it in person.
I didn't believe him so we broke up. We chatted on the net a bit afterwards and he has called me several times.
Well back to the present, so there I was on Sunset Blvd having a dinner with my relatives at this Japanese Restaurant and I spy Caleb having dinner with John. I of course go over and say hi and we chat a bit and they guys invited me to a club they were going to. I said yes and I left with them.
John spent the entire night hitting on girls and i chatted with Caleb for hours. I realized how much I missed him and he admitted that he hasn't had a relationship sense he and I broke up and I confessed that neither have I.
To make a long story short, Caleb dropped me off at my Uncle's house and while we were in the car he dropped a bombshell on me. He wants to get back together.
I froze.
I didn't know what to say.
So I told him I'd sleep on it and he kissed me. It was one of those mind blowing kisses that last for minutes and I must say it is helping me make my decision. But I am skeptical. I don't want to be hurt again.
I feel like I'm in the show Sex and City with the episode when Carrie says she wants to get back together with Aiden, the guy she cheated on and hurted badly. So basically I'm Aiden and Aiden is skeptical about Carrie, he doesn't want to get hurt again.
I am so fucking confused.
What should I do?
To give you an idea of what I'm working with, there is a pic of Caleb in my pictures.
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Still in Florida
I'm still looking for a job. I've posted a lot of waitressing jobs and I am even apllyng to a KFC not to far from where I am staying. Hey, I need the money.
I've been watching tv a lot lately, been quite bored actually.
There is someone who just happens to be out here at the same time I am and I really want to see him but the chances are extremly slim so I'm not going to get my hopes up. But wouldn't it be so ool if I did see him, not to mention fate. We are both in Fort Lauderdale, FL.
Anyway, gotta go, bye.
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Monday, December 20, 2004
I'm in Florida
Hell funcking yeah, I'm in Florida. Thanks to lots pf prayer and me being so persistent I am now in Florida with my relatives. I finally got to see my grandmother and my little brother Gino. My mum is here too and I saw her new house, it is really nice. She has a condo in North Lauderdale.
I'm trying to get a job as a waitress here. there is no better job to meet people and get tips for being nice. I used to be a waitress so I have some experience.
Wish me luck on job hunting.
Start from the bottom and work your way up.
It's long so bare with me.Loans, DDR and Hot Topic
Well on Sunday, I went to the mall with Caleb, John and two other people and that mall is huge, we were there for 3 hours and there are still places we haven't seen yet. We didn't get to the food court, we went to a Taco Bell in front of the mall.
While there I, got a call from my older brother Joe who told me that our childhood friends from California (Samayah and Hershey, yes those are their real names) are going to a school in Connecticut, possibly even my school which is very cool.
I also bought this cute outfit from Hot Topic. Caleb wanted to pay for it but I wanted something else to be my gift so we went to the bookstore.
There he bought my volumes 5-9 of Boys Over Flowers (Hana Yori Dango). And he said when I get back to school I should be expected the first season of inuyasha for my birthday. All I got him was a teeshirt that said "My trip to Florida was so expensive, all I could afford was a teeshirt"
He thought it was very funny.
We left the mall at like 6 and then we went to this club in Miami. I got back to my unkles house around 1 in the morning.
Yesterday I went to this huge shopping center called the Swap Shop and sepnt about 3 hours playing DDR with a bunch of people and then I watched the Circus, a few of people who were playing the game with me are in the Circus. No they are not clowns, there're acrobats and one of them is the National Hollahoop champion. She's very cool.
I got to the Swap Shop at about 12:30 but I didn't leave until 6.
I had a lot of fun yesterday and i may go again today but right now i have a bunch of loans to fill out. I only owe 1022 dollars for next semester not counting lab fees. So I'm getting a loan for 1400 to pay my tuition as well as to pay for books and maybe even to get into the good hall. I need 250 to get into the Apartment Suite.
Currently listening:
Satellite
By P.O.D.
Release date: By 11 September, 2001
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Saturday, December 25, 2004
Christmas Day
I spent the better part of this day with mad (crazy) relatives and the only cool thing that happened today was that I got to see Cup of Russia (Figure Skatting Championships) and yes I do watch figure skating, but I only watch the couples and the guys. My fav skaters are Jhonny Wier and Evgeny Plushenko. One is Russian and the other American but they both train in CT and I got to meet the both of them through a friend of mine who skates. They were really nice.
I only got one gift and that was from my grandmother, the one person I really wanted to see when I came out here.
Tomorrow I am going to the mall with me mates, (Caleb, John and his new person). Caleb and i have agreed to be just friends. I'd rather have him as a friend then go through the whole long distance thing again.
I have not been writing lately but I have been drawing. Sense Ceramics is full next semester, I may go for the drawing class. I already have a portfolio I could show the professor too.
Well I have to go, need sleep for big day tomorrow.
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Thursday, December 23, 2004
Caleb
Current mood: confused
I spent the last few hours hanging out with Caleb, John and his latest sqeeze at the Fort Laduerdale Swap Shop playing DDR and watching the Circus. I of course was very caucious being that I am afriad of clowns. Luckily everything was acrobatic so no clowns. I'd rather not freak out and have a spaz attack in front of Caleb.
Nothing has changed on the Caleb front. We talked for about a an hour, well we argued more like. Though I still have feelings for him I am not the same person I was 4 months ago and a lot has changed. I also found out that he has been reading my blogs(Behind my back) so he knows about the other guys. Well the only one that matters is Mike from the show. The others I don't really have feelings for. As far as I know Caleb has not been with anyone and I believe him because female contact is scarce at West Point. There aren't many girls enrolled at his school.
I told Caleb that though I do still have feelings for him, I cannot say right now that I want to get together. I need time, lots of time.
I told him that we need to just hang out as friends so that I can get to know him again. He still harbors some jeaously over the whole John thing because John did admit to liking me and he did indeed tell me about the threesome to get me to break up with Caleb. He and Caleb didn't speak for weeks by the way. Calebtold me that he hated the fact that John got to spend all that time with me over th summer and he was stuck in Cali on family issues. Then he admitted to sleeping with those girls to kind of get back at me for not listening to him.
You see after June when Caleb first left for Cali, he told me not to spend too much time with John because he didn't think it was fare for John to see me when Caleb could not. But I couldn't keep John from coming over my cousin's house or running into to him in Manhattan and I cetainly could not stop John from telling Caleb that we were still hanging out. It was a whole big mess but the thing that made Caleb really angry was when he found out that John had bought me this DVD Box set of Love Hina, something I told Caleb I wanted for Christmas because it was coming out around that time but John being the guy with many connections was able to get the Japanese version of it. Caleb was livid with me and John. It wasn't till then that Caleb had the threesome.
So much fucking drama eh?
I cannot be blammed for the way things turned out and I understand that he does trully care for me and is sorry for hurting me. I just don't know if I want to rush back into a relationship with him espcially with all the things going on at school, the fact that during school we can only see each once of twice a month and there is John to consider.
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I can't believe it!
Current mood: confused
Of all the people I thought I'd see when I was out here, my ex was the last I thought. My ex is this 21 year old guy who goes to West Point Millitary School. Now this guy cheated on me with two girls (Had a threesome) while he was away on Holiday in California. But it wasn't him who told me, it was his best friend John. While Caleb (Thatis his name) was away in Cali, I was in New York with John for most of the summer and we hung out a lot. Caleb was getting really pissed about it and he wanted me to stop hanging out with him so much so I told John and John told me about the threesoome.
At first I didn't believe it but then I confronted Caleb and he admitted to doing it. He said he was going to tell me himself but he didn't want to do it over the phone or on the net, he wanted to do it in person.
I didn't believe him so we broke up. We chatted on the net a bit afterwards and he has called me several times.
Well back to the present, so there I was on Sunset Blvd having a dinner with my relatives at this Japanese Restaurant and I spy Caleb having dinner with John. I of course go over and say hi and we chat a bit and they guys invited me to a club they were going to. I said yes and I left with them.
John spent the entire night hitting on girls and i chatted with Caleb for hours. I realized how much I missed him and he admitted that he hasn't had a relationship sense he and I broke up and I confessed that neither have I.
To make a long story short, Caleb dropped me off at my Uncle's house and while we were in the car he dropped a bombshell on me. He wants to get back together.
I froze.
I didn't know what to say.
So I told him I'd sleep on it and he kissed me. It was one of those mind blowing kisses that last for minutes and I must say it is helping me make my decision. But I am skeptical. I don't want to be hurt again.
I feel like I'm in the show Sex and City with the episode when Carrie says she wants to get back together with Aiden, the guy she cheated on and hurted badly. So basically I'm Aiden and Aiden is skeptical about Carrie, he doesn't want to get hurt again.
I am so fucking confused.
What should I do?
To give you an idea of what I'm working with, there is a pic of Caleb in my pictures.
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Still in Florida
I'm still looking for a job. I've posted a lot of waitressing jobs and I am even apllyng to a KFC not to far from where I am staying. Hey, I need the money.
I've been watching tv a lot lately, been quite bored actually.
There is someone who just happens to be out here at the same time I am and I really want to see him but the chances are extremly slim so I'm not going to get my hopes up. But wouldn't it be so ool if I did see him, not to mention fate. We are both in Fort Lauderdale, FL.
Anyway, gotta go, bye.
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Monday, December 20, 2004
I'm in Florida
Hell funcking yeah, I'm in Florida. Thanks to lots pf prayer and me being so persistent I am now in Florida with my relatives. I finally got to see my grandmother and my little brother Gino. My mum is here too and I saw her new house, it is really nice. She has a condo in North Lauderdale.
I'm trying to get a job as a waitress here. there is no better job to meet people and get tips for being nice. I used to be a waitress so I have some experience.
Wish me luck on job hunting.