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I've been taking a look at what I've done and I'm doing and not liking what's going on. I'm changing for the better but I wish I could just have this type of baptism of sorts to cleanse me of all the mistakes I've done..all the sins I've committed. Trying to be the better man is trying to be someone who I'm not..trying never killed..realizing the things I've done shocked me and dulled me and cut me and hit me. Amazing vapors enter me so I can see what the world sees in me. Questions about self worth is questions I hate to ask..hate to think about. Mirrors don't lie..only give the harsh truth. My brain put up a wall and I'm slowly trying to break it apart. I shouldn't let my mind wonder....got to get back to where I am.