I have a new saying....
I'm in this state of mind right now and I've been in it for a while..replaying memories and old feelings and new feelings and lost feelings and all I'm feeling is tired is so many different ways. I have no time for things I don't even have enough time to breath. I can't take her out on a date or even go out to eat. It's my choice everything is my choice but right now I have so many things on my mind and so many things on my plate I just feel like going into my closet and just staying there. I'm just so goddamn unhappy and I'm hiding it by keeping myself so busy. If I work I can't think, if I work I can't cry, if I work I can't fake being happy, if I work and scream at a non living object it's ok, if I work I can hammer out my frustration.... but in the morning hours while everyone is asleep I think and that's what I hate best, that's what kills me.
See you at my funeral.
See you at my funeral.