Review/Update
I've been reading through my last few year's posts - the public and private ones. I'll attempt to reference all the topics. This may be a bit jumping from one thing to another!...
To fully update, Dad died on Feb 25th. I miss him. I played a gig at a bereavement charity event where I sang 3 songs that reminded me of him. I know he's in heaven with God. So I don't really mourn, I thank Jesus for saving him.
Rachel is less of a slag now, with a boyfriend called Steve who's moved in seemingly. I still don't trust her, and our relationship suffers due to her past lies and my inability to see her being anything but deceitful and/or manipulative.
Henry is 6, Freya is 4. They had a joint birthday party at Blyth sports-centre soft-play. It's been a tiring week.
My garage studio is getting set up! Speakers and a couple of keyboards in. I just bought a Les Paul off Ian Fraser too. £500. Not too bad. Jasmine complained, obviously. She doesn't understand being a musician.
Teaching is interesting. Starting in Gosforth Academy in Sept, and leaving Western Community Primary cos they're dumb and don't want to offer lessons to the children. And I'm leaving Central Primary in Ashington cos it's horrific and kids don't practice.
Mother is always ill. Many ailments. Constant flow of doctors appointments and tablets. She misses Dad and cries herself to sleep. Poor mother, it much be awful. I don't feel like I help her very much.
Jasmine and I are fine. Physical touch is still very much lacking, but what can you do? "It's my body, I don't want to do that" is her response to anything. I even gently touch her and she pulls away. Hug? Pulls away. Kiss? Absolutely not, out of the question! So we're unbalanced in that part of our marriage. She can't change anything in her mind.
I did a post 3 years ago where I'd been 6 month free of watching porn. - That turned into 2 years solid, with a little mishap last Christmas. Apart from that, I've kept myself from those websites. - Not that this was ever a major problem for me. I just felt as a Christian that it didn't match my morale values, but has been a struggle all my life.
We've done well painting the kids bedrooms last week.
I'm still not there with my personal spiritual/physical balance. I need more God, more exercise, more creativity. Less late nights (don't check the time stamp on this post! Haha) and less selfishness.
To fully update, Dad died on Feb 25th. I miss him. I played a gig at a bereavement charity event where I sang 3 songs that reminded me of him. I know he's in heaven with God. So I don't really mourn, I thank Jesus for saving him.
Rachel is less of a slag now, with a boyfriend called Steve who's moved in seemingly. I still don't trust her, and our relationship suffers due to her past lies and my inability to see her being anything but deceitful and/or manipulative.
Henry is 6, Freya is 4. They had a joint birthday party at Blyth sports-centre soft-play. It's been a tiring week.
My garage studio is getting set up! Speakers and a couple of keyboards in. I just bought a Les Paul off Ian Fraser too. £500. Not too bad. Jasmine complained, obviously. She doesn't understand being a musician.
Teaching is interesting. Starting in Gosforth Academy in Sept, and leaving Western Community Primary cos they're dumb and don't want to offer lessons to the children. And I'm leaving Central Primary in Ashington cos it's horrific and kids don't practice.
Mother is always ill. Many ailments. Constant flow of doctors appointments and tablets. She misses Dad and cries herself to sleep. Poor mother, it much be awful. I don't feel like I help her very much.
Jasmine and I are fine. Physical touch is still very much lacking, but what can you do? "It's my body, I don't want to do that" is her response to anything. I even gently touch her and she pulls away. Hug? Pulls away. Kiss? Absolutely not, out of the question! So we're unbalanced in that part of our marriage. She can't change anything in her mind.
I did a post 3 years ago where I'd been 6 month free of watching porn. - That turned into 2 years solid, with a little mishap last Christmas. Apart from that, I've kept myself from those websites. - Not that this was ever a major problem for me. I just felt as a Christian that it didn't match my morale values, but has been a struggle all my life.
We've done well painting the kids bedrooms last week.
I'm still not there with my personal spiritual/physical balance. I need more God, more exercise, more creativity. Less late nights (don't check the time stamp on this post! Haha) and less selfishness.