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I had to painfully watch as Abby submitted her application to the university in North Carolina. Then we proceeded to cuddle and I told her I love her. But I feel her pull away... I feel despair everytime I say it. I get the feeling she wants to say it but she is trying to ease me into the fact that she'll disappear from my life, and everything I've put into this will be crushed, like everything else in my miserable life.
I dont know how people maintain a happy face. I want to fold up everytime I talk to her and cry. I have to look at this list on how to cope with the loss of a loved one every time i talk to her just to keep sane. It's not fucking fair. Everything is always hopeless.
I dont know how people maintain a happy face. I want to fold up everytime I talk to her and cry. I have to look at this list on how to cope with the loss of a loved one every time i talk to her just to keep sane. It's not fucking fair. Everything is always hopeless.