listening to aural floats
I question whether or not I should proceed in a venture dealing with a girl named leigh. I want to attempt to express sensual feelings towards her, but I struggle to define them, and am conflicted with the fact that their are both unfounded and unwanted. In expressing these feelings, I wish to remain completely aside from myself;
this time I don't want to be on the wrong side of an unwanted answer.
The choice or consequence of either action or inaction is ultimately futile and pointless. Therefore, I can justify choosing either path because I am trying to define something that currently has no definition for me, and at the cost of either admitting to myself that I should not exist or lying to myself to convince myself to exist, I will choose one of the options as a means to more clearly define it.
of course, the mere fact that I even contemplated these courses of action means that I have already assigned some importance to the matter, which I will not do. Therefore, to append my previous statement, I will continue to remain indifferent to the series of interactions between Leigh and I, and will neither be surprised or expect anything to materialize from the interactions. In doing so, I have remained indifferent, and consequentially, protected, secure, and still able to continue the struggle.
this time I don't want to be on the wrong side of an unwanted answer.
The choice or consequence of either action or inaction is ultimately futile and pointless. Therefore, I can justify choosing either path because I am trying to define something that currently has no definition for me, and at the cost of either admitting to myself that I should not exist or lying to myself to convince myself to exist, I will choose one of the options as a means to more clearly define it.
of course, the mere fact that I even contemplated these courses of action means that I have already assigned some importance to the matter, which I will not do. Therefore, to append my previous statement, I will continue to remain indifferent to the series of interactions between Leigh and I, and will neither be surprised or expect anything to materialize from the interactions. In doing so, I have remained indifferent, and consequentially, protected, secure, and still able to continue the struggle.