underlying themes
just gotta keep living.
have to finish school.
continue on living within an absurd universe.
gotta pretend that I care about those instructors.
gotta pretend that I care about what I'm learning.
gotta pretend that I care about working this summer.
gotta work to have money so I can continue to work for money.
ehhh....
I have to pretend that I am ok with not having a real person to talk to. Someone real.
I am afraid to share my secrets with people. so
I gotta keep my secrets hidden.
As I look around the area near my computer, I cant help but wonder what things would have been like if I had a different outlook on life. Perhaps if I was a god fearing man when I was younger, I would have been driven more to do things by some invisible force (later called 'god'), which would have possibly made making relationships easier for me.
But I doubt it. I wonder if anyone has any certainty. I certainly dont.
Sometimes, despite the fact that this goes against everything I have done, I wish I had some meds. So I could take some pills and these magical beans would make me be happier and not stress out over little things and make the only good things in my life last forever.
have to finish school.
continue on living within an absurd universe.
gotta pretend that I care about those instructors.
gotta pretend that I care about what I'm learning.
gotta pretend that I care about working this summer.
gotta work to have money so I can continue to work for money.
ehhh....
I have to pretend that I am ok with not having a real person to talk to. Someone real.
I am afraid to share my secrets with people. so
I gotta keep my secrets hidden.
As I look around the area near my computer, I cant help but wonder what things would have been like if I had a different outlook on life. Perhaps if I was a god fearing man when I was younger, I would have been driven more to do things by some invisible force (later called 'god'), which would have possibly made making relationships easier for me.
But I doubt it. I wonder if anyone has any certainty. I certainly dont.
Sometimes, despite the fact that this goes against everything I have done, I wish I had some meds. So I could take some pills and these magical beans would make me be happier and not stress out over little things and make the only good things in my life last forever.