Amen Omen
Lately I feel like I'm just floating around here. Nothing is particularly bad. Yet,nothing is outstandingly good. things just....are. I just...am. I'm here, but i dont' really feel a lot. there are things that are not good going on, but also some great things too...but altogether all i feel is really...nothing. I can't say it's awful, but its surreal.
A friend was talking to me and he said "i think when you've had enough things happen to you, it's as tho it gets surreal and you begin to be indifferent to things." it's so true though.
Take my icon, of the guy from garden state. I feel like that. he's just standing there, that scenario is ridiculous, his mother just died, and all this stuff is so odd around him, but he just stands there and doesn't really show anything or make much of a fuss. I feel like that most of the time. i mean i find things funny, but i dont' care all too much about most things. maybe that's a good thing...but then again, it just doesn't seem real.
I feel like i just watch the world go by. Like i'm so trapped in my own world that i can't break free and get involved at all. I'm just so detached it seems.
I don't know, I guess i can't complain, but to some extent i'd almost rather feel pain over numbness b/c then it's at least real...but then again i remember pain and i am tired of feeling it. The past semester was filled with it, and i'm not a fan of getting a lot more...hmm.
I suppose I'll stop now...just found it...odd.
A friend was talking to me and he said "i think when you've had enough things happen to you, it's as tho it gets surreal and you begin to be indifferent to things." it's so true though.
Take my icon, of the guy from garden state. I feel like that. he's just standing there, that scenario is ridiculous, his mother just died, and all this stuff is so odd around him, but he just stands there and doesn't really show anything or make much of a fuss. I feel like that most of the time. i mean i find things funny, but i dont' care all too much about most things. maybe that's a good thing...but then again, it just doesn't seem real.
I feel like i just watch the world go by. Like i'm so trapped in my own world that i can't break free and get involved at all. I'm just so detached it seems.
I don't know, I guess i can't complain, but to some extent i'd almost rather feel pain over numbness b/c then it's at least real...but then again i remember pain and i am tired of feeling it. The past semester was filled with it, and i'm not a fan of getting a lot more...hmm.
I suppose I'll stop now...just found it...odd.