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Holy crap its been awhile since of done this. how the heck is everyone? i ask a question knowing full well that nobody is going to respond to it.. and if by some odd chance you do respond and find yourself talking to your monitor.. you need help. I've been stressed a lot lately.. and i dont really know why.. i've never been stressed about anything ever in my life... but randomly i've been having anxiety attacks like i need to be somewhere, doing something, or paying for something.. i mean.. i have things i have to do.. but not for awhile.. i guess thats why i dont keep a calander.. knowing that i have important things to do in the near future apparently bothers me. well.. to say things are the same as they used to be would be, to say the least, a lie. though.. change isnt always bad.. i just dont cope with it very well to begin with, though, once i finally adjust to everything. things should be great. I've been tired a lot lately.. that might have something to do with the stress.. i've also got a canker sore in my mouth.. (which i will also attribute to stress) <--- funny thing is i almost wrote "sex" instead of "stress" and that would have changed that statement durastically. lol.
ever get the feeling you were beaten before you ever had the chance to start? if you havent had the pleasure.. its incredibly. i dont even know what i feel like i lost at... i just feel beaten.
I thought i was having a stroke today.. turned out to just be a migraine.. but for about 20 mins i lost partial vision and it was pretty scary.
I'm supposed to hang out with Latsyrc again this weekend which will undoubtably be fun. she's one cool cat.
So to say that i am a "good christian" would by all means be a lie. I mean.. really my only tie to religion as of right now. is that i know that the things i do/ have done are wrong.. not that that changes anything really. so i guess im a christian because i know i sin. lol. if that makes sense. idk what the point of that was... but there it is. lol.
i feel like this year was all in all a waste of time.. classes blew.. i made a grand total of about 3 friends that i will keep in touch with.. the rest i dont really care to talk to again.. lost to many to count. next year already is starting to look grim. again... beaten before i even started.
i'll just hope for the best, and expect the worst.. and i'll never be suprised. peace nig.
ever get the feeling you were beaten before you ever had the chance to start? if you havent had the pleasure.. its incredibly. i dont even know what i feel like i lost at... i just feel beaten.
I thought i was having a stroke today.. turned out to just be a migraine.. but for about 20 mins i lost partial vision and it was pretty scary.
I'm supposed to hang out with Latsyrc again this weekend which will undoubtably be fun. she's one cool cat.
So to say that i am a "good christian" would by all means be a lie. I mean.. really my only tie to religion as of right now. is that i know that the things i do/ have done are wrong.. not that that changes anything really. so i guess im a christian because i know i sin. lol. if that makes sense. idk what the point of that was... but there it is. lol.
i feel like this year was all in all a waste of time.. classes blew.. i made a grand total of about 3 friends that i will keep in touch with.. the rest i dont really care to talk to again.. lost to many to count. next year already is starting to look grim. again... beaten before i even started.
i'll just hope for the best, and expect the worst.. and i'll never be suprised. peace nig.