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...I'm not doing well lately..
Oh, what a surprise.
I've been so fucking depressed.. I've noticed that I no longer care about my job, and I don't do it as well as I used to. I wanted to go off so bad at work today. And I wished that I could have ran off somewhere and just let myself cry. There's not a single thing in my life that makes me happy. Nothing. People ask me what's wrong, and I don't want to tell them, even though sometimes I wish I could.. They wouldn't really care even if I did tell them. None of them give a shit about me. They all hate the way I am. And I hate the thought of trying to tell someone about my issues if I think they're the kind of person who wouldn't understand where I come from.
This isn't even about my job, really. Work is only a tiny part of it. It's my life as a whole that's my problem. It's the way I am; and the way I get. The way I tear myself apart inside over anything and everything. It's just.. so many things...
I need a vacation, or therapy, or medication, or something. I'm so fucking tired of getting this way...
Oh, what a surprise.
I've been so fucking depressed.. I've noticed that I no longer care about my job, and I don't do it as well as I used to. I wanted to go off so bad at work today. And I wished that I could have ran off somewhere and just let myself cry. There's not a single thing in my life that makes me happy. Nothing. People ask me what's wrong, and I don't want to tell them, even though sometimes I wish I could.. They wouldn't really care even if I did tell them. None of them give a shit about me. They all hate the way I am. And I hate the thought of trying to tell someone about my issues if I think they're the kind of person who wouldn't understand where I come from.
This isn't even about my job, really. Work is only a tiny part of it. It's my life as a whole that's my problem. It's the way I am; and the way I get. The way I tear myself apart inside over anything and everything. It's just.. so many things...
I need a vacation, or therapy, or medication, or something. I'm so fucking tired of getting this way...