Jul 19, 2008 21:42
I should be sleeping. Which means tomorrow is going to suck balls.
I'm thinking, though. I wonder about people more and more these days. I understand that a large chunk of society just kind of exists, and doesn't take that step to self-discovery. Then there are those who dabble in self awareness, but don't delve deeply. There are some who fight and struggle to find their true selves, and these people I am in awe of.
Then there are those... those who are aware, who have taken the steps... but who live in a world of their own construction. These are the worst, because they believe they are all knowing because they have looked inside themselves and have seen and therefore don't need to go any furthur. They see what they believe to be fact and so they live based off of that information. The problem? They are functioning outside of the reality that they live in. And in doing so are just out of phase with the rest of the world. Inadverdently hurting those that they love and who love them through their own unwillingness to see.
Everyone who wants to be in a better spot in their head, who want to be happy and functioning and an active participant in this world should go see a therapist. Like, tomorrow. Be brutally honest, truthful about everything... and use it as a tool along with whatever other things you need (exercise, healthy eating, medication) and find your place in this reality.
Do not lose yourself in despair, do not turn to simple chemical means to 'fix' your problems... never stop questioning. Look inside yourself and see the 'why's' behind who you are and how you act. And then see if you are ok with that. If not, change.
I'm doing it. For me, for my kids, and for those who love me and have fought with me to get me to this spot. I ow it to those who have put so much love and effort into me to use what they have given me for good... to better myself, to help myself become a more functioning member of society, and to rise above the place that who I was encouraged me to go. I will not take that work for granted. They worked to help get me here. Now I'm going to buckle down and do my part.
So. Don't you think it is time you show those who care about you that you appreciate their gift of love?
I've been amazed at what just talking to a therapist has done for me.
I think you might be too.