Life, love and laughter.(Or Lack thereof)

[mrdog]

I don't know whether it is something to do with this unexpectedly unpleasant weather, or indicative of some more permanent malaise, but I am going through another of my periodic bouts of unhappiness. I find myself, therefore, in esteemed company on these pages; which, at present, seem filled with tales of woe and anguish. I cannot immediately place my finger on what it is that is making me unhappy, but by crikey, it's making an excellent job of it. The sum total of all the things that are making me miserable is that I am unable to find a single affirmative thing in my life. My family has never been that hot at making me feel special(Very English like that), my work is singularly uninspiring, I cannot escape the sensation that I have managed to convince myself that I am considerably funnier than I actually am, and I find little consolation in the fact that I am unable to connect to approximately 97% of the people I meet on anything but the most-superficial level. As for relationships, I shudder at the very thought of them. I honestly spent a profitable hour this morning weighing up emigration options. (Sydney or Auckland)
The worst thing of teh lot is that all these problems are entirely within my power to dispel, and I can't summon the strength of character to do anything. So you can add a hefty dose of self-serving self-loathing to the list of issues written above.
I like to think I don't whine that much, so I hope you will forgive me the occasional whinge. Life just seems appalingly awful at the moment.

In other news my father starts Chemotherapy on Tuesday.