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[mrdifrancotoyou]

chuckles quietly. its funny the things you end up doing. tonight, well, in an hour, i am going to run a makeup workshop for tiny christian children at a tiny christian church group run by my tiny christian father. well ok he's not tiny but we were getting somewhere akin to in a dark dark house on a dark dark street, or is it just the british

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[mrdifrancotoyou]

its very complicated. but basically, i suppose you would say im agnostic. i have been raised and schooled more towards christianity than anything else, my parents are (now, in the last 7 years), christian, very strictly, but werent anything when i was younger so i didnt have a religious upbringing in the slightest. it is a source of great pain and frustration between my parents and i, less so in the last few years, but still our biggest alienation (and its a vast one) and having been pushed and pulled and forced and dragged through certain things, terrifying and isolating, at a tender (teen)age, i now have a healthy respect for all religions, but like to take a back seat when it comes to beliefs and practices. I am interested in religion and the religions, but my personal demons from it make me positive that every person has to choose. i know if i ever have children, i will raise them to make a choice, with all the information and the experiences, none of the pressure.

unfortunately its a sore point for me. i now look at it only as something i can give my father; a kind of nod to supporting him, that i will help and show up now and again even in spite of my bad memories.

i am not comfortable with any of it. and, obviously, being gay makes me further from my parents ideal of what i could be, if it is possible to get further away from that archaic image. my father cant talk about it. which is ok. it takes time. i disappoint, you might say.

does that answer the question? i'm not sure.

[spiffygrub]

yes that answers my question very well. thank you so much for sharing with me. this is a topic i have been thinking a lot about bu that i dont discuss with many people. i am sort of confused on where i stand and its not easy for me. but thanks again for sharing with me. you are awesome!