...Yeah, sure ya did...
It has come to my attention from reading people's responses and posts - here on live journal; that it seems like people are trying too hard to get people to laugh.
I am sometimes guilty of this, I mean I'm in a good mood and want my friends to know it so I over accentuate a couple of jokes or something to that effect. I just think it's funny cuz you can tell who is trying too hard to get a laugh and who's just writing crap and not really thinking about what they're writing. Then it turns out funny. Why do people try so hard?
Why does society teach that emotional detachment is okay? I hear all the time, "If you really love her/him, you will let them go." Is it because it's better to be safe than sorry? I have found out that I tend to hope for the worst so I wont look stupid when the best happens. I just don't like that feeling of being let down, i guess. I know it's part of life, but I guess I sub-consciously protect myself from that pain. For example, say I am driving I'd hope that I get in a terrible crash. When I don't get in a terrible crash though, I can celebrate. If I do, then I can say "i had a feeling that'd happen." and there is no let down. If I would have hoped I wouldn't get in a crash, then I did - it would be devastating.
I realized today that life doesn't always have a happy ending. I know most of the people that read this have already thought of that possibility, but I thought about it in depth. You know? Just mentioning it here doesn't really do it much justice. I am not saying this to be pessimistic, I am saying it because, obviously, if there is an unhappy ending there is a happy one somewhere else. The universe has to balance.
I have just been thinking a lot about life in general, lately. You know? what it's going to be like... how certain things will affect me... being a father. That kind of junk. I am referring to life like I am lacking one right now, like it hasn't started yet. When really, that is half true. I mean, I have lived a good portion of life right now - the part I am mentioning though, is after age 21.
It seems like to me that there are different sections. It seems from birth until about 8 years old are really just the years for you to get used to your new body. After 8 is when you gain REAL friends, you know, not friends your mom sets you up with. But friends that you hang out with and ride bikes with. This seems to me that it is a pretty fun time in someone's life the ages of 8-13 because nothing really matters except video games, riding bikes, hangin out and friends. After thirteen, it's like we learn more about our surroundings, we start understanding all the "adult" jokes we would see our parents laugh at but not understand. Then, after 18 you are really just floating around figuring out what to do. Unless you had planned on going to college. It almost exclusively has to do with a person's comfort zone though. You have to step out of your comfort zone many times in order to take the first steps to growing up. I guess I've kinda learned that the hard way.