a new year
welly welly well. i've pretty much been thinking i need to get some new everything. friends, location, car... everything about howell is just fucked. hanging out at someone's house is the definition of gay now. i've been starting to save up to move but the thought of a new car has entered my mind. we'll see how it goes. i think the possibility of this place driving me insane will rush my decision on moving. i don't know where i want to move though. i don't think i'd really be a fan of moving a few towns over. when i move it will be something more dramatic. definitly out of state. i just don't see any happiness for me in howell. the one thing that i had going for me has recently crumbled and i have no clue if i will ever get it back. a lot of my friends are just prostitutes to me now and i'm the returning customer. i call them up when i wanna have a good time but when the sun sets i could live without them. guys don't take this personally but theres really only one person right now that i truely love in my life. everyone else i could do without, except her. and if i'm forced to be without her, why suffer myself to this anguish another minute...