been a long time
It's been a long time since i've said anything....mostly because i've been trying to keep this a "live" journal.But i havn't been feeling very alive latly...Everythings been just the same...Well till recently...Now everything might fall apart on me.I just am feeling so bad latly I don't want to keep this journal "alive" anymore. To me it's more like the online form of venting other people can read...So they can see they're not the only one's who have a problem...or if they really are mean, to see that there are people dealing with something so they can laugh at them, even without knowing who they are.Anyways, weather my journal is "alive" or "dead" I have been feeling bad latly...it's bee nhard to eat and sleep, but I don't feel sick at all... So i just forse feed myself and lay in bed for hours untill i drift away into that bliss of a dream. other then that I'm just in a bad mood most of the time...witch you might already know ...Since i know there are only two people who read this...And they've both seen me recently...But even though they might know there is something wrong I'm just using this to vent a little and maybe feel a bit better. Basicly the whole problem is me worrying. But it's something I'm ganna worry about no matter how much people tell me not to...But there really isn't anything i can do about it, it either happens or doesn't and thats about it...So all i can do is wait, worry, and vent in my "live" journal...But noone one cares so...