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soooo yeah... today was definately a complete waste of a day ... minus the fact that i got my first paycheck from the new job... a week and a half.. got me a nice $530.19 lol... sucky part??? $370 is going to rent for the new apartment that im moving into with my sister and her bf.. oh and the dog. but yeah i dunno i just wanted to go to the mall today, hang out with ralph, do SOMETHING!!... but did any of that happen??? of course not. i hate making plans ahead of time it never works. now im just in a bad mood bc friday and saturday i have plans and to be honest i dont wanna look like a scumbag wearing a tshirt like i always fucking do.. but now im beat bc the mall closes in about half hour.. and michelle said if i can wait til saturday.. obviously not if i said i needed clothes for friday too. but whatev no one ever listens to me anyway.. it goes through one ear and out the fuckin other.
so they take the doggy to the dog park.. and i guess they felt bad for me bc i decided to stay home and they call me and say get ready we're going to the mall.. i dont wanna go to the mall bc of a guilt trip so i said no.. but i wanted to go but then i would feel bad bc i got my way. sorry thats just not how i work, thing that got me mad the most is the fact that my sister wanted to go to the mall yesterday and we agreed that we'd go, so we get outa work cash my check and come home and then everyone goes out but me? thats cute. anyways i guess thats it.. i just feel like shit and like even crying??? that makes NOOOOOOOO SENSE! i dont cry lol.. havent in the longest time.. im just at the point where like everything pisses me off maybe its just like stress of everything.. i dont have the patience for this whole me working full time at the baby age of 17 and moving out and being tired all the time.. and now the thought of being alone is really getting to me, i hate everything.. hopefully it'll just all blow over. like i said hopefully.
im done for now.. i'll write later.....................maybe updating is a pain in the ass
so they take the doggy to the dog park.. and i guess they felt bad for me bc i decided to stay home and they call me and say get ready we're going to the mall.. i dont wanna go to the mall bc of a guilt trip so i said no.. but i wanted to go but then i would feel bad bc i got my way. sorry thats just not how i work, thing that got me mad the most is the fact that my sister wanted to go to the mall yesterday and we agreed that we'd go, so we get outa work cash my check and come home and then everyone goes out but me? thats cute. anyways i guess thats it.. i just feel like shit and like even crying??? that makes NOOOOOOOO SENSE! i dont cry lol.. havent in the longest time.. im just at the point where like everything pisses me off maybe its just like stress of everything.. i dont have the patience for this whole me working full time at the baby age of 17 and moving out and being tired all the time.. and now the thought of being alone is really getting to me, i hate everything.. hopefully it'll just all blow over. like i said hopefully.
im done for now.. i'll write later.....................maybe updating is a pain in the ass