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So when you get hit with that momentary, soul crushing, makes you want to cry but you can't because you're already crying so hard that you have no more tears, in that strange place between anger and suicide inducing sorrow, really bad depression, what are you supposed to do? Are you supposed to just smile, and post on Facebook that "everything is going great guys!" and put on a happy face for all the world to see when you really don't know if you even have the desire to see another day? Fuck man. I guess you're supposed to rely on your friends. But what the fuck happens when all of your friends don't fucking value you? You send them messages, you call, you text, you fucking send snail mail, and they don't even fucking respond to you. What the fuck. I'm really sad. I'm fucking depressed. And there's absolutely nothing that I can do about it except wallow in it.