Friend-Sick
no good stories or anything todaay. ehh no good stories at all lately. lol its getting boring heree. schools good, but boring. friends here are ehh..i dunno. had a shitty day yesterdayy. just borrrinnng. i just kinda realized that i have a pretty weak friend base here. which is my fault and junk, but i dunno. my roommate dom is pretty cool. i got closer to him this last year cuz we started hanging out more, goign to lunch and junk, and just talkign about gfs and life and junk lol. hes the other guy up here with a gf, so its cool talkign about that stuff sometimes. good guy.
but i dunno, im having kind of a bad time finding things to do. its hard to find friends to hang out with sometimes cuz i dont really liek goign to the frats or w/e and i dont wanna go for girls here. i just feel liek lately everyone has someone else up here. but i dont have liek a best friend to hang out with when im down and junk. i have kim and the guys of course, but its not the same as havign someone to hang out with when i just need to get out. and none of the kids i kinda figured i could always call on are there. liek every one of my older friends has moved on...theyr too busy and stuff, or have new friends. and i dunno...its just depressing
liek last nite i spent the whole nite staring at my comp. just so gaay. if i was home this would never happen. if nothign else, id just go drive myself off a cliff listening to the Wanderer or something lol. but that gets me thinking too...
i miss my old friends. i miss the feeling of knowing that i always had multiple groups of people to go to when i needed help or just needed to see a friendly face. i look into my fone list sometimes and go over and over all the numbers...each one of them representing a friend ive lost or fallen out of step with. it just makes me sad. sometimes i just wanna say fuck life for a day and just see everyone i havent in a while. but then i remember that theyve all moved on too.
like i saw my friend pete yesterday, which i thoguht would be awesome, cuz i havent seen him in forever. but it was just kidna awkward. we have no idea whats goign on with ech other anymore. and hes so wrapped up in stuff here that he never has time for anythign but frat stuff and his new friends. so i dunno..i just feel liek its the same way with all my old friends. all new ties, everyone moved on. ryan has his new group, so we never see each other anymore. i know he gets my calls when i make them, but im not liek the kid hes gonna be chillin with that nite, so its not as important to pick it up. and hes not being a dick or anything, but its just not as important to call me back anymore. and ive done the same thing when ive missed his calls. stuff just slips your mind.
i was looking at old pictures the other day and it just made me sad. happy but sad. and i dunno...just seeing all the people who used to call me their friend, and who proly dont even think about teddy segarra anymore. its just weird. i feel so alone..
Thats all i got,
Mr. Wonderfull
but i dunno, im having kind of a bad time finding things to do. its hard to find friends to hang out with sometimes cuz i dont really liek goign to the frats or w/e and i dont wanna go for girls here. i just feel liek lately everyone has someone else up here. but i dont have liek a best friend to hang out with when im down and junk. i have kim and the guys of course, but its not the same as havign someone to hang out with when i just need to get out. and none of the kids i kinda figured i could always call on are there. liek every one of my older friends has moved on...theyr too busy and stuff, or have new friends. and i dunno...its just depressing
liek last nite i spent the whole nite staring at my comp. just so gaay. if i was home this would never happen. if nothign else, id just go drive myself off a cliff listening to the Wanderer or something lol. but that gets me thinking too...
i miss my old friends. i miss the feeling of knowing that i always had multiple groups of people to go to when i needed help or just needed to see a friendly face. i look into my fone list sometimes and go over and over all the numbers...each one of them representing a friend ive lost or fallen out of step with. it just makes me sad. sometimes i just wanna say fuck life for a day and just see everyone i havent in a while. but then i remember that theyve all moved on too.
like i saw my friend pete yesterday, which i thoguht would be awesome, cuz i havent seen him in forever. but it was just kidna awkward. we have no idea whats goign on with ech other anymore. and hes so wrapped up in stuff here that he never has time for anythign but frat stuff and his new friends. so i dunno..i just feel liek its the same way with all my old friends. all new ties, everyone moved on. ryan has his new group, so we never see each other anymore. i know he gets my calls when i make them, but im not liek the kid hes gonna be chillin with that nite, so its not as important to pick it up. and hes not being a dick or anything, but its just not as important to call me back anymore. and ive done the same thing when ive missed his calls. stuff just slips your mind.
i was looking at old pictures the other day and it just made me sad. happy but sad. and i dunno...just seeing all the people who used to call me their friend, and who proly dont even think about teddy segarra anymore. its just weird. i feel so alone..
Thats all i got,
Mr. Wonderfull