nooooooooooooooooo
poo
i just want to have an actual relationship before school starts. impossible, though. i am not meant to be a lover. so i've been kind of swinging between optimistic and moping lately and moping is winning out right now.
le sigh. nothing ever works out the way i want.
but i went to vote today and had an imagined argument with a 'protect marriage' guy sitting near the ballott place about god. i asked him, if gays were sacriligious, why did god make them? obviously, homosexuality can't be abhorrent to god because he created it. so then i kind of extrapolated and realized that by that argument, everything that exists is good: war, disease, rape, famine, pain, loss, suffering, whatever. all the horrible things people try and pray away and whatnot are all obviously created by god and part of god's plan. thus, to question them is to question god. they exist for a purpose. they are good. so even if i don't believe in a monotheistic god, the reasoning still supports my "best of all possible worlds" mentality that i try and maintain. everything happens for a reason, and that reason is always positive in the end.
so really, it's awesome that i can't get a girlfriend. just fucking awesome!
i just want to have an actual relationship before school starts. impossible, though. i am not meant to be a lover. so i've been kind of swinging between optimistic and moping lately and moping is winning out right now.
le sigh. nothing ever works out the way i want.
but i went to vote today and had an imagined argument with a 'protect marriage' guy sitting near the ballott place about god. i asked him, if gays were sacriligious, why did god make them? obviously, homosexuality can't be abhorrent to god because he created it. so then i kind of extrapolated and realized that by that argument, everything that exists is good: war, disease, rape, famine, pain, loss, suffering, whatever. all the horrible things people try and pray away and whatnot are all obviously created by god and part of god's plan. thus, to question them is to question god. they exist for a purpose. they are good. so even if i don't believe in a monotheistic god, the reasoning still supports my "best of all possible worlds" mentality that i try and maintain. everything happens for a reason, and that reason is always positive in the end.
so really, it's awesome that i can't get a girlfriend. just fucking awesome!