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Fuck am I ever disgusted by myself right now. Like, way more than usual, which is normally pretty high up. These projects are just killing me. My absolutely abysmal time management skills, combined with my inability to recognize when I need help AND to go seek it out is making me fail pretty hard. I mean, I'm passing everything, but all of these final projects can NEVER be seen outside of a learning environment. Nothing I'm doing can go in a portfolio, which is supposed to be the goal of this course ultimately.
This stupid fucking film is a nice scapegoat, but it really is my behaviour. God damn it. These are all projects I've had a month or longer to pick away at, and SURPRISE SURPRISE, I'm doing them all at the last minute. And not ONLY does it show, it shows I don't know how to perform the techniques. Ugh. I don't know what I'm trying to accomplish with this rant. It sure isn't allowing me to proceed with all my other projects that are all due this week. It doesn't help that all these things I'm bombing are all 3d projects, the reason I signed up for the course in a sense.
Time to go and:
-butcher my maya/photoshop matte painting
-churn out a whole bunch of hand drawn perspective garbage
-introduce/present a designer to the class
-do my interface task from scratch
-render my living room from scratch
-build a 5 page website from scratch
-GET THAT FUCKING MOVIE DONE.
Group projects need to go and fucking burn in hell. I'm investing too much time in a movie I hate, just to make another student's portfolio to look good. Why the Hell did I learn "sacrifice yourself to better others"? If that film was a solo project, I'd bomb it and kick the ass of all my other projects, but NOPE! I have to make sure Mr. Director, Creepy McCreeperson who writes a movie no one can act in so he can make out with girls a decade younger than him, and mentally handicapped dude get their film.
Time to shove some textures on to a shitty looking castle.
This stupid fucking film is a nice scapegoat, but it really is my behaviour. God damn it. These are all projects I've had a month or longer to pick away at, and SURPRISE SURPRISE, I'm doing them all at the last minute. And not ONLY does it show, it shows I don't know how to perform the techniques. Ugh. I don't know what I'm trying to accomplish with this rant. It sure isn't allowing me to proceed with all my other projects that are all due this week. It doesn't help that all these things I'm bombing are all 3d projects, the reason I signed up for the course in a sense.
Time to go and:
-butcher my maya/photoshop matte painting
-churn out a whole bunch of hand drawn perspective garbage
-introduce/present a designer to the class
-do my interface task from scratch
-render my living room from scratch
-build a 5 page website from scratch
-GET THAT FUCKING MOVIE DONE.
Group projects need to go and fucking burn in hell. I'm investing too much time in a movie I hate, just to make another student's portfolio to look good. Why the Hell did I learn "sacrifice yourself to better others"? If that film was a solo project, I'd bomb it and kick the ass of all my other projects, but NOPE! I have to make sure Mr. Director, Creepy McCreeperson who writes a movie no one can act in so he can make out with girls a decade younger than him, and mentally handicapped dude get their film.
Time to shove some textures on to a shitty looking castle.