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[mr_teh_sex]

so today has been pretty depressing on my part...

though sometimes randomly i have thought about doing bad stuff and wanting to hurt myself because i feel like sometimes its the only way to releive pain but i wont...

and the thot of dying just doesnt seem to bad even tho my lifes not all that horrible yet i have that meloncholy feeling deep within...

davey and his hombre made me feel kinda even more depressed about stuff so then i said i should just kill myself for you since im just a retard and stupid and a bitch.. as they called me...

and they dindt seem that to be a bad idea.. i know it was sarcasm and asshole'ism but still shit like that makes me feel like some people dont truly care........

i miss CHRISTina dearly right now

once twice three times dead

dearly departed we are gathered here today
i miss you so but your already dead
my insides they move and turn
but my heart is already gone
yours i shall need
yet dont fret
it wont take long
you shall cry too
and see what i have once before
alone we stand together
always and forever
dont forget this second
because it wil cease to exist
mankinds nature is forever to harsh
so lets escape tonight arm in arm
goodbye