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Title: Enjoy
Chapters: 1/3
Pairing(s): GTOP
Author: mr_t_o_p
Rating(s): PG-13
Genre: Comfort & Fluff
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone.
Comment: First chaptered-GTOP. I hope this goes well. Will be updated daily.
Summary: "You, Kwon Jiyong, are the love of my life."
So, TOP, do you plan on having a wife and kids in the future?" the MC had asked.
The rest of Big Bang sat and anticipated the rapper's answer.
Seunghyun thought about if or a few seconds and nodded, "Yes, I do."
Jiyong ran a hand through his hair and sighed, staring up at the blindingly white ceiling of his bedroom. He shouldn't be doing this, mourning over Seunghyun's words from yesterday's interview. Seunghyun loved him, and the older made sure he knew that - no matter how unromantic he was. And he was pretty sure that the "wife" his lover was talking about was obviously him. But still, kids? He couldn't imagine himself as a father. He already hated kids thanks to Seungri and would probably go mad trying to take care of one for the rest of his life. But that wasn't the real problem, and he hated thinking about it.
He buried his head under the pillow and screamed - something he shouldn't be doing. They had a recording to do tomorrow and he really should be giving his voice a break. He felt the bed dip to his right and he emerged from the pillow to find Seunghyun staring right back at him with a smile on his face. That...dorky, dorky smile of his. Jiyong puffed out his cheeks and narrowed his eyes. Well, this was awkward.
"Hey baby." he got and a hand rested on his hip. His eyes narrowed furthur. He sat straight up and crossed his legs, looking down at his long-time boyfriend. He wanted to wipe that smile off the man's face but couldn't bring himself too. It was too handsome. He mentally face-palmed himself for thinking of such things at the moment. Now, to get down to business.
"Marriage?" he asked, sticking up one finger.
"Wife?" he stuck up a second finger.
"KIDS!?" he stuck up a third finger, shoving it in front of Seunghyun's face.
Seunghyun's eyes widened as the back of his head sunk into the pillow, hoping it would swallow him up and hide him from this angry Jiyong. He let out a weak grin and tried to avoid eye contact with the younger rapper. He knew what he said yesterday in the interview was a big mistake. He was sitting directly across from Jiyong at the time and after he answered that stupid MC's question, noticed how his boyfriend had tensed up.
"Yes?" he squeaked out, moving his hand to slowly bring Jiyong's down to rest on his chest. Rather than softly landing on his chest, the palm smacked down and he let out a choked cough. Okay so, he had known Jiyong would be mad. But he didn't know his dongsaeng would be this mad. He didn't even get a chance to explain yet. He watched as his boyfriend pouted and his bottom lip quivered, his eyes about to spill tears.
"G, wait. Calm down, alright? I didn't even tell you everything yet." He said, sitting up himself and grabbing Jiyong's hands in his own, holding them gently. He was hoping to comfort Jiyong somehow. His lover was sensitive, and as much as the other didn't want to show that to others, he of all people would know. When they were alone, all walls of resistence came down and there you go, you get the real Kwon Jiyong.
Using the same technique Jiyong had used, he stuck one finger up. "You, Kwon Jiyong, are the love of my life. You will always be the love of my life and we will always remain lovers. And as for kids, we can always adopt. Okay?" he explained.
Jiyong sat in silence and bit his bottom lip, "I love you too, and I want to give you kids. But I can't do that." he said with a cracking voice, looking up at Seunghyun sadly.
"I know you can't, G. But it's okay. We don't need kids, aren't we happy as we are now?" he tried to reassure the other. Seeing that Jiyong wasn't convinced, he pulled the other man into his arms and hugged him close, letting his boyfriend's head rest on his chest. It was moments like these where he found himself weak compared to Jiyong. Because he couldn't provide Jiyong the happiness he deserved, where as Jiyong always provided the happiness he of all people did not deserve.
"I'm happy with how we are now because I don't want kids. But you do. And I can't help but feel disgusted with myself because I can't give them to you!" he sobbed into his lover's shirt.
"If I were a woman then I would be able to!"
Seunghyun sighed, rubbing his lover's back, trying to soothe the other in every possible way. "Don't say that baby."
"But it's true."
"Yes, but the fact that I love you exactly how you are now is also true. As a man, a man that made the past few years of my life filled with happiness and excitement. You have absolutely no idea how exciting and upbeat my life became when I met you." he whispered into the other's hair.
Jiyong smiled into the now wet shirt. "And you have no idea how much you helped me slow down life, and how you taught me to enjoy it."
Seunghyun chuckled, "then enjoy baby, just enjoy it." he said, tilting Jiyong's head up with his finger and kissing him full on the lips. Jiyong's mouth was salty with tears but he didn't care, it was their moment.
Neither knew how long they stayed like that, just embracing each other and kissing, to show each other how much they actually loved each other. But by the time they had fallen asleep, the sun was mid-way to setting; and their bedroom was basked in orange.
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A/N: I've been updating a lot, and I guess it'll just continue
until I get a writer's block - which is not likely.
This Fanfic will be updated daily. I'm nearly done with part 2/3.
It's supposed to be short and sweet. Hoping to get good reviews!
[ I have no Beta and don't plan on getting one. Sorry for mistakes. ]
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