Dear Frank Stachulski
Damn let's see here...
So do you think you're sweet by ignoring me or something?? Just to be a fucking hard ass? Well uhhh YOU'RE NOT. You don't even understand the situation and you are taking everything all the wrong ways. Why are you getting pissed and drinking? That is DEFINATELY not going to make anything better at all. Hello!!!
You say that you "tried so hard" but you didn't. Just because you went out and bought me things, is it all supposed to be fine and dandy after that? NO its not. Don't get me wrong, I loved everything you got me. The cards were cute, the letters meant everything, the piggly wiggly was adorable, the roses are ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS and the cd is my all time favorite! (oh and the thermometer was freakin hilarious) but you were totally missing the point. What meant THE WHOLE WORLD TO ME was the fact that I wanted you to stop with your drunken shenanigans and your asshole attiutde. ESPECIALLY your alcoholism.
You don't realize this but you are going to hurt so many, SO BAD around you if you don't stop now. You are way too young and way to smart for this. I wish you would just see. You say that you want to make yourself better but you don't. The only way you would is if I stayed with you and that's not right. Do you get it yet? It's not that I don't love you or don't want anything to do with you, It's the fact of the matter, Frank. You and only you can make your life change. Not me or anyone else can do that for you. Of course people will support you but are you even willing to make that change......FOR YOURSELF? Apparently you're not because you haven't even tried. GOD! I wish you could just feel how I feel. I think to myself all the time, "If he would just try for himself everything would be soooo much different. Things wouldn't even be the way they are now." But I try to explain this to you and all you ever say is, "Quit dangling this in front of my face!" That is NOT what I'm doing. I am trying to get you to realize what you are doing to yourself and the people around you.
Frank, If I haven't had made the decision I did, things would not have gotten any better. They would have gotten worse. WAY WORSE. No matter what you say. You need to be alone to do this. You don't need someone clouding your thoughts. Trust me, if you try for yourself and be patient, (even though I know you are EXTREMELY impatient) you will see the changes in your life. Whether it be with me or anyone/anything else. Please, be patient and believe in YOURSELF, You can do it, Baybins. I KNOW YOU CAN. <3
Love Always,
Brittany
P.S. Please dont fuck any SLUTS. Thanks.
Somehow you still get me to smile through these tears...
So do you think you're sweet by ignoring me or something?? Just to be a fucking hard ass? Well uhhh YOU'RE NOT. You don't even understand the situation and you are taking everything all the wrong ways. Why are you getting pissed and drinking? That is DEFINATELY not going to make anything better at all. Hello!!!
You say that you "tried so hard" but you didn't. Just because you went out and bought me things, is it all supposed to be fine and dandy after that? NO its not. Don't get me wrong, I loved everything you got me. The cards were cute, the letters meant everything, the piggly wiggly was adorable, the roses are ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS and the cd is my all time favorite! (oh and the thermometer was freakin hilarious) but you were totally missing the point. What meant THE WHOLE WORLD TO ME was the fact that I wanted you to stop with your drunken shenanigans and your asshole attiutde. ESPECIALLY your alcoholism.
You don't realize this but you are going to hurt so many, SO BAD around you if you don't stop now. You are way too young and way to smart for this. I wish you would just see. You say that you want to make yourself better but you don't. The only way you would is if I stayed with you and that's not right. Do you get it yet? It's not that I don't love you or don't want anything to do with you, It's the fact of the matter, Frank. You and only you can make your life change. Not me or anyone else can do that for you. Of course people will support you but are you even willing to make that change......FOR YOURSELF? Apparently you're not because you haven't even tried. GOD! I wish you could just feel how I feel. I think to myself all the time, "If he would just try for himself everything would be soooo much different. Things wouldn't even be the way they are now." But I try to explain this to you and all you ever say is, "Quit dangling this in front of my face!" That is NOT what I'm doing. I am trying to get you to realize what you are doing to yourself and the people around you.
Frank, If I haven't had made the decision I did, things would not have gotten any better. They would have gotten worse. WAY WORSE. No matter what you say. You need to be alone to do this. You don't need someone clouding your thoughts. Trust me, if you try for yourself and be patient, (even though I know you are EXTREMELY impatient) you will see the changes in your life. Whether it be with me or anyone/anything else. Please, be patient and believe in YOURSELF, You can do it, Baybins. I KNOW YOU CAN. <3
Love Always,
Brittany
P.S. Please dont fuck any SLUTS. Thanks.
Somehow you still get me to smile through these tears...