I suck at explanations
I don't know. I've been really thinking alot because that's all I can do. I think I may have came to a conclusion on why I do the things I do. Uhh, I'm scared they are going to be done to me first, so I try to do them before anyone has a chance to do it to me. I mean, not intentionally but I do them and then just feel like ass. I'm so scared of getting hurt by someone I care about that I'd rather feel like the biggest piece of shit ever than feel broken hearted. Because let me tell you, thats one thing I CANNOT DEAL well with; a broken heart. Probably the two people that truly know how big of a wreck I can get is Jill and my mom. THEY KNOW. I never meant for everything to be like it is with anyone. I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. That's all I can say. There are no words to say that would make anything better. I am so sorry. I just want everything to be better right here right now. PLEASE believe me, I WILL TRY MY HARDEST. I promise.
And for you to have the nerve to call me a waste of your time and say that I never appreciated your love. Oh yeah and that last thing you said to me, that WILL NOT be forgotten...
And for you to have the nerve to call me a waste of your time and say that I never appreciated your love. Oh yeah and that last thing you said to me, that WILL NOT be forgotten...