Relief
Wow. This is all I ever really wanted [with you]. To be able to have someone, that I can chill with on a regular basis and do things like have intelligent conversations, booze it up and just have a good time without getting out of hand, listens to what I have to say for once without critisizing or making fun, never forcing me to make ridiculous promises and not try to get down my pants every second of every day. But you could NEVER do any of that. That's all I wanted. I just wanna know...was that too much to ask??
But ya know what? I finally found that. I never thought I would. I love the fact that he loves coming to my home and talking to my parents and showing them that he really does care and respects them. I love the way him and Mike Law sit at the bar and cheers it up every two seconds and laugh and have a good time together. It DEFINATELY warms my heart to know that my parents adore him. I swoon over the fact that we like the exact same things(music, movies, a passion for history, and all the little things in life) and have the same point of views on everything. Hey dead giveaway...we go pretty damn good together. And it amazes me that he respects the hell out of ME, never yells or calls me any names. He just does things for me without me ever asking. I love when he says, "Stop. I'll do it. It's the man's job to take care of the woman Miss Independent. So go sit down." It just amazes me. I never had that before. It's kind of a hard adjustment though. I have no worries with him and he has none with me. I can finally be my own person. No more walking on eggshells wondering if I'm going to be flipped out on. No more waking up expecting and wondering what the fight everyday is gonna be about. No more stupid little comments said just to ruin my night. I'm happy. I can actually say that. Wow. Sooo I dunno. It's crazy.
P.S. If you read this, please don't think that I'm doing it to "rub it in your face" ok? All of this is the truth and you know what? I know you are much more happy now. I know you are glad that you dont have to do any of that anymore. You know I will always love you though. <3