Things in my life
After a fairly long period of feeling pretty normal I've been screwed up mentally again. I've been having mood swings, angry thoughts, depression, and anxiety. Right now I feel really sad for no apparent reason. About two weeks ago I was on Ambien(which I was taking to help me sleep) and I drove while I was on it, broke some windows and glass objects that were part of our property, and self-harmed.
I hate being like this because I feel like I'm unable to function. I've been unemployed since my first suicide attempt back in September last year and I'd like to find a job, but when I'm like this I can't even look for one much less work one.
I am starting to feel better some of the time. I'm also converting to Buddhism which definitely has potential to help.
I'm also having another problem. I know a girl that I actually find attractive both physically, and personality wise, which is a rare thing for me. But I'm 23 and she's 15.
I hate being like this because I feel like I'm unable to function. I've been unemployed since my first suicide attempt back in September last year and I'd like to find a job, but when I'm like this I can't even look for one much less work one.
I am starting to feel better some of the time. I'm also converting to Buddhism which definitely has potential to help.
I'm also having another problem. I know a girl that I actually find attractive both physically, and personality wise, which is a rare thing for me. But I'm 23 and she's 15.