Confused
So things are already getting cofusing for me....
Let's start with Erin..... the girl is so much fun and we tease one another and have such a good time with each other. We've gone out every night the last 8 nights in a row. I know she likes me. I know I like her. She has a boyfriend back at home of 5 years who she grew up with as best friends, but she isn't in love (whatever that damn word really means) with him anymore, but she can't hurt him. She hates being touched and that I pay for all her things. She also lacks A LOT of common sense and cannot hold an intelligent convorsation, although she has a degree already in liberal arts and is going back to school to work on a Biology degree. I care abut her a lot. There are times when it seems like we're so perfect for one another and others where it doesn't so much. But she asks people at work if they think her and I are a cute couple together, and talks to others to try to get my feelings and everything that's going through my head. She told one guy at work that she knew there was a spark between her and I and that she wanted to be with me, so I approached her, and went to tell her what I felt and she said no before I could get any word out, then jumped into an elevator and closed the doors to get away from me. She just left to go back home for a week to her boyfriend and her family and I miss her already. She probed me all night asking me if I was going to miss her, and I reluctantly told her that I would at the end of the night, and she told me she would miss me, too. But when I walked her out to her car to say goodbye, she froze up again and jumped in her car real quick and said goodbye, and that was that. So now I'm left with a week full of wondering what if and where I am in her life.... I told her I respected what her and Kevin had and that I wouldn't intrude on it, but what I really did was not fight for what I wanted, which leaves me with regrets...
Secondly, Bubba is up 2-0.... fuck.....
ThirdlyI've been in a really sappy mood when I'm not around people.... when I'm with people I'm very happy and jumpy and personable, but when I'm by myself I keep getting real quiet and listen to very emotional music, and it just really feels like deep down something is missing and I have no idea as to what that is, but I want it back...
I need sleep, and a lot of answers....
Let's start with Erin..... the girl is so much fun and we tease one another and have such a good time with each other. We've gone out every night the last 8 nights in a row. I know she likes me. I know I like her. She has a boyfriend back at home of 5 years who she grew up with as best friends, but she isn't in love (whatever that damn word really means) with him anymore, but she can't hurt him. She hates being touched and that I pay for all her things. She also lacks A LOT of common sense and cannot hold an intelligent convorsation, although she has a degree already in liberal arts and is going back to school to work on a Biology degree. I care abut her a lot. There are times when it seems like we're so perfect for one another and others where it doesn't so much. But she asks people at work if they think her and I are a cute couple together, and talks to others to try to get my feelings and everything that's going through my head. She told one guy at work that she knew there was a spark between her and I and that she wanted to be with me, so I approached her, and went to tell her what I felt and she said no before I could get any word out, then jumped into an elevator and closed the doors to get away from me. She just left to go back home for a week to her boyfriend and her family and I miss her already. She probed me all night asking me if I was going to miss her, and I reluctantly told her that I would at the end of the night, and she told me she would miss me, too. But when I walked her out to her car to say goodbye, she froze up again and jumped in her car real quick and said goodbye, and that was that. So now I'm left with a week full of wondering what if and where I am in her life.... I told her I respected what her and Kevin had and that I wouldn't intrude on it, but what I really did was not fight for what I wanted, which leaves me with regrets...
Secondly, Bubba is up 2-0.... fuck.....
ThirdlyI've been in a really sappy mood when I'm not around people.... when I'm with people I'm very happy and jumpy and personable, but when I'm by myself I keep getting real quiet and listen to very emotional music, and it just really feels like deep down something is missing and I have no idea as to what that is, but I want it back...
I need sleep, and a lot of answers....