shades of murder
queasy, uneasy,
shaking wristed hesitation
conselfession
subsurficial wrestleness
forced handfuzzul
pet and nuzzle
victim of success
cuddle turned to shiver
burrow deeper
like a sliver
run for cover
i will find you,
unwilling participant
procrastination
past denial
choice comes to pass
through containinglass
shoulder skin
pinned to earth
not soil, but solid
cold metal
bent on wheels
bruising padded flesh
escape reflex
squirm and scream
claws and teeth
tooth and nail
no avail
immobile
no match for great big gray
yours is mine
taking time
life and shit and piss and struggle
sterility forgoten
steel is virility
line it up
get it done
tap tap tap
you dont like that.
sliding in
taking
your medicine
innocence betrayed by age
exploitangent truthfelt rage
plungent descent of depresser
"its all over" says agressor
toss to cage with flippant urgency
not a second glance
perhaps a prod
or theme park thrill
ill-mannered
bedside practice
"he'll be fine"
makes it better
blood brimming over
drop on brow
twitch and spasm
skitting familiar circles
not quite broken
not yet
"thats a seizure."
earns him release
hung from hook for ridicule
protracted conclusion breathes the harshest fate
darkest day
doing what i couldnt
numb fingers acting practiced
going through themotions
adding tally
list of sins
cold sets in
robotic disconnection
all too easy
sweet spot
sweat, snot
do not cry
do not cry
not yet, anyway
thats for later
undeserved indulgence
pass unnoticed
casual torment
calm and awful
buisness as usual
shaking wristed hesitation
conselfession
subsurficial wrestleness
forced handfuzzul
pet and nuzzle
victim of success
cuddle turned to shiver
burrow deeper
like a sliver
run for cover
i will find you,
unwilling participant
procrastination
past denial
choice comes to pass
through containinglass
shoulder skin
pinned to earth
not soil, but solid
cold metal
bent on wheels
bruising padded flesh
escape reflex
squirm and scream
claws and teeth
tooth and nail
no avail
immobile
no match for great big gray
yours is mine
taking time
life and shit and piss and struggle
sterility forgoten
steel is virility
line it up
get it done
tap tap tap
you dont like that.
sliding in
taking
your medicine
innocence betrayed by age
exploitangent truthfelt rage
plungent descent of depresser
"its all over" says agressor
toss to cage with flippant urgency
not a second glance
perhaps a prod
or theme park thrill
ill-mannered
bedside practice
"he'll be fine"
makes it better
blood brimming over
drop on brow
twitch and spasm
skitting familiar circles
not quite broken
not yet
"thats a seizure."
earns him release
hung from hook for ridicule
protracted conclusion breathes the harshest fate
darkest day
doing what i couldnt
numb fingers acting practiced
going through themotions
adding tally
list of sins
cold sets in
robotic disconnection
all too easy
sweet spot
sweat, snot
do not cry
do not cry
not yet, anyway
thats for later
undeserved indulgence
pass unnoticed
casual torment
calm and awful
buisness as usual