6th form party
last night. couldnt go. had a drama meeting and no money. apparently it was awesome. i'm the only member of 6th form with no hangover today. so its quite boring. im not sure what to make of this school. theres so many cool people here, but whenever im talking to people who go to college, it always seems more interesting than what i'm doing. i mean i know the grass is always greener on the other side, but there does seem to be a huge difference in levels of fun. its even raining. im going through one of those phases where i really need to be with someone special, but i never have any free time out of school and theres no-one that i like like that here who doesnt already have a boyfriend. feel like shit. accidentally missed drama today, thinking it was later than it was, so my chances of failing this probation im on is increasing every day. im out of money, out of cigarettes and out of luck. i feel better for sharing this though, and im not depressed. just not feeling great about myself.