so im losing it
im losing my mind or something...i swear almost everyday i do like 5 or six things that make me feel like a fucking idioti.e today 3 times 3 TIMES I "turned my car on" when it was already on...i turn the car off without putting it in park...i leave my keys in the ignition constantly...ill be driving and all of a sudden im like outside my house i like daydream or just wander off in myhead and dont even realize that im operating heavy machinery i just drift..i only wish i could drift on cue or when i wanted to...in class..yes im going to class...i keep getting caught doing stupid things i guess like counting tilesor bricks in the wall or reading my gatorade bottles or making my noises, quietly i swear, random thoughts i ask questions totally not relating to the topic at hand and get ummm looks i guess, so then i decide to read which is apparently worse than sleeping cuz i get called out on wut im doing while theres 3 people heads down with nothing on the table fucking bitches the whole time im in class i feel stupid cuz everything im taking ive done in high school minus psychology whcic seems to be a lot of common sense so i would think some people annoy me but im going to class...i have to right ill just go and get a wonderful degree thatll only afford me a mediocre job at best unless i can somehow network my way into a high paying job but thats not too likely since i dont like talking to people new people most people as of late i need a place to run off to a place where theres no distractions at all so i can get shit done or something i decided that i fucking hate the word committee im not sure why i dont like it tho it doesnt look good? to me i hate how i cansay some words over and over and they begin to lose meaning and stop making sense i wish i had some disorder that i could blame all my problems on that would be nice but nothing here to place blame on except myself that doesnt sound right but wutever theres so much crap i think about during the day that i tell myself i HAVE to remeber and end up forgetting it just pisses me off i need to keep a log of my thoughts or something i need to write down stuffand not lose the thing i write it down on but wutever i rearranged my room yet again i really want to know why ive been doing it so much lately stuff just doesnt look right where it is/was/will be so i have to fix it
so according to ike theres this urbandictionary.com place where u can type in a word/your name? well mines not in ther mine being jasco and you can add your own definitions so i waas wondering how would one define jasco...me...one suggestion "one who talks in questions" says ike and thats all ive got so far but need more suggestions so all who read this make a suggestion right?
so according to ike theres this urbandictionary.com place where u can type in a word/your name? well mines not in ther mine being jasco and you can add your own definitions so i waas wondering how would one define jasco...me...one suggestion "one who talks in questions" says ike and thats all ive got so far but need more suggestions so all who read this make a suggestion right?