youre so money and u dont even know
my keyboard = 125 keys/buttons
no chess today...fuck...dont even know wut today is...bed i guess...not tired...just nothing to do...everything sucks ass...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...B I N G O
swingers...movies...dont know...too many thoughts...cant think
y am i how i am blablabla
change = bad
12 mirrors in my house
no perfect squares...yet
need to workout..
swingers, no...cant concentrate
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
beaker-muppetbabbies-rule-kermit-yea
pearlands better than lubbock-the gym
too muchenery for htis time of noight basketball not so fun too wet or suomthingg i fell like an idiot for no apparent reason back to clumsiness and such. family gettin gon my nerves again dont llike them at a ll right now dont htink i wana go to school in the fall but i will just cuz in eed to waste my time some how myabe take up rading or something to keep me busy dont wana learn chess and do but wutever dont know that i have the will or paitenece ot put upwith anythingright now need tto go to the gym solitude in the crowd doing my own thing no worries at all...i need a haircut bad baut i dont hitnk ima get one cuz odnt are right now im sore for the first im ine a while thats good but wutevr i need to slee pless but the only time im really not agitated is when im sleeping ...........theres always seemsto be soemthing on my mind and most of the time its sometthing stupid that doesnt really matter
im weird or difrent in myt hinking ithink like 100% more cynical than any and devious dffinitlly devious or bitter or something...expect the worse...usually hope for it too heh, the little kid and the basketball...looking for peoples weaknesssssses to go at em just to see how strong of a person they really are, if they live up to my standards ill probly quit otherwise just keep at it until im done with them or get fed up with them like as of late the thing with the person blah...definitely so...still annouying to htink about asshole for a year right..how bout the rest of my life..to the general public anyways cuz yea. wut do i need them for, and visasversa im sure its just way a whole lot easier and funny to some extent....spidey spray all up in ya face type deal...then a mad crazy car chase ending in me winning cuz thats the ways its gotta be..i think i know my limits but im not too sure,, definitely waiting for the day some one pissees me off, totally dont care how ill react, i just will...wont think of the conseqquences or anything cuz thats the way i roll or something...people really annoy me...anything anyone does can be annoying. rhters no forewarning or way too see how ill react so maybe i should just stay home as much as possible...sounds okay i guess not too bad,i cant think of anything to do im freaking bored as fuck as fuck as fuck as fuck and i cant think period i guess it just like a blob of thoughts combining with one another to form odd moments in my head its kind of weird...i go from like ooooh i wana play dinky bomb to how many perfect squares are in my house i totally wana take adderall orsomehitng right now just like once to see if itll really help me cuz i have so much stuff in me i dont know that itd help and then i hear people get kinda cranky when they take it...dont wana do anything or somthing, odnt quite remembr...thats another thing i cant like..remember stuff how i used to. crazy formulas thatll be useful once in my life if ever...but its stuff i like so i try and hold on to it, memories are all we have or something ......my chest hurts sooom uch propping up my arms on the desk is way uncomfortable my back is kind of sore but not too much...cant get over eddie cortez he go pretty fucking big...but only odin 345 courtesy of the special protein of course..y would u take that crap, but wutever...lotsa fellas i hear are getting pretty big which focourse i annoying cuz im here doin this crap..could be goin to the gym...if ionly had a damn 24hrtifness membership so yea i saw a cool butterfly im not sure when ive been back here for a while now just realizing i guess but wutever i dont wana do anything and i wana d oeverything o need organization a lot...never been to good at that, tryhing to keep everything up in my head i figure wutever out sooner or later so its cool i guess. its worked out the way its meant to be done ya.i cant freaking scratch my back cuz of my damn chest the only downside ot working out i suppose
that i can think of right now anywys but it feels kinda cool sort of...not too badjust sitting here ive got like a hairache and too much light gets in my room in the mornings and its really hot always wakes me up...otherwise im sure id be sleeping for a lot longer...5 or 6 like not so recently but sort of i still have my crap in lubock get that soon maybe i need a break from just everything i wana just go away for a while til i feel bettter about stuff but im sure id only go back to the way i was the way i am how i am is weird i think i cant explain i guess ud have to be me right and not soemthing id put on anyone not thats its bad just really odd an extrovertive introver or something everything about me seems contradictory or something likes and dilikes but it all hcnage just depending on how i wake up.. yea. that usually sets the point of the day, if i wake up to a phone call its usually like a busy day or something ...wake up to yelling definiely not a good day for me, so y should it be a good day for the peopole around me, ruin there day for some comfort...misery likes companmny sorta thing.but im sure the poing im making doesnt exist im not one for making points i point things out yea mistakes and such i hate making mistakes s o much especially when its soemthing i think i know quite a bit about...ive held my tongue a lot lately in hopes that poeple "family" owuld act different but it doesnt happen everyone is doing there own thing and dont really pay attention or make the effort to show that they are and maybe be less bitchy or loud or something not the person id of htougth it was either . so people annoy me i feel kind of funny like energized but tired typing with my eyes lsoed probly lost of mistkaes yea heh wutever i cant do anything and it feels so fucking restricting i mean i can go out but i dbnt wana go anywhere i wana watch a movie with the volume as high as it can go as to drown everything and everyone out..but nope, gavethat freedom up for somethng "better" myabe ill get it back some time ssoon or not...they need to go on like a month vacation and die or something cuz this aint the ticket ha james is a mad man and then like ill be okay cuz theres pretty muc h no more caring no family obligations nothing of that sort free to wtuever not that id go crazy with drugs and alcohol and such just pretty much wut i had with more benifits i guess so i started out just to make a quot then a little more and a little more and now i cant stop typing and its waking up my dog and someone upsttairs it walking or soemthing im sure not gonna let th dog out cuz its not my fuvcking responsibility didnt want the damrn thing but wutever soemtines coming hahahahha fucker awaken from your slumber by the damn dog u paid and outrageous amount of money for im sure juust cuz you feel obligated ...obligations fuck em fuck evrythng i jsut dont want to care adn for the mosr part i dont htink i do until something happens to prove otherwise ill sitck with that cuz i can...............i totally need somehting to happen cuz this isnt working out as planned temporary distractions i totally keep most everythign to myslef parents have no clue as to the things that go thru my head, im sure theyd be quite ditsturbed if they knew wut a good catholice upbringing htey have provided its the bestandworst dogs still barking probly has to pee or somtehing but im not sayin a word cuz u should beeable ot figures it out and ignore wut i say anywayss im sure im way fucking smarete than any of the mwere at my age not as mature more cynical woohoo i abosllutely love it and dont know y the ring yea im sorry right NO NOT ONE FUCKING BIT i wonder how i came to be how i am i mean it hink someone else had been in my shoes they d be just fine for the most part but nope.. not this fucking guy fun fun stuff still need chess but ya i suck i knoew i can beat james i think maybe yea or not i have to one day tho dog shtut up oh well and there it goes i feed it sooooooo much crap its spoile doenst eat its own food hahahaha waste of money biatch or something it eatss more junkfood than i do it ate two burger patiites yesterday and its like 5 pounds or something im gonan make it fat fucking jungle bood 2 pisses me off... fucking dinesy to ruin a good thing but im thingkin to be d i go cuz this is going absolutely nowhere...well not where i would like it to how will i be in like 30 years ....sitl alive???? crazy senile????oh i ho0pe i will be a huge fuckign burden on someone thats for sure
no chess today...fuck...dont even know wut today is...bed i guess...not tired...just nothing to do...everything sucks ass...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...lalalalalala...B I N G O
swingers...movies...dont know...too many thoughts...cant think
y am i how i am blablabla
change = bad
12 mirrors in my house
no perfect squares...yet
need to workout..
swingers, no...cant concentrate
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
beaker-muppetbabbies-rule-kermit-yea
pearlands better than lubbock-the gym
too muchenery for htis time of noight basketball not so fun too wet or suomthingg i fell like an idiot for no apparent reason back to clumsiness and such. family gettin gon my nerves again dont llike them at a ll right now dont htink i wana go to school in the fall but i will just cuz in eed to waste my time some how myabe take up rading or something to keep me busy dont wana learn chess and do but wutever dont know that i have the will or paitenece ot put upwith anythingright now need tto go to the gym solitude in the crowd doing my own thing no worries at all...i need a haircut bad baut i dont hitnk ima get one cuz odnt are right now im sore for the first im ine a while thats good but wutevr i need to slee pless but the only time im really not agitated is when im sleeping ...........theres always seemsto be soemthing on my mind and most of the time its sometthing stupid that doesnt really matter
im weird or difrent in myt hinking ithink like 100% more cynical than any and devious dffinitlly devious or bitter or something...expect the worse...usually hope for it too heh, the little kid and the basketball...looking for peoples weaknesssssses to go at em just to see how strong of a person they really are, if they live up to my standards ill probly quit otherwise just keep at it until im done with them or get fed up with them like as of late the thing with the person blah...definitely so...still annouying to htink about asshole for a year right..how bout the rest of my life..to the general public anyways cuz yea. wut do i need them for, and visasversa im sure its just way a whole lot easier and funny to some extent....spidey spray all up in ya face type deal...then a mad crazy car chase ending in me winning cuz thats the ways its gotta be..i think i know my limits but im not too sure,, definitely waiting for the day some one pissees me off, totally dont care how ill react, i just will...wont think of the conseqquences or anything cuz thats the way i roll or something...people really annoy me...anything anyone does can be annoying. rhters no forewarning or way too see how ill react so maybe i should just stay home as much as possible...sounds okay i guess not too bad,i cant think of anything to do im freaking bored as fuck as fuck as fuck as fuck and i cant think period i guess it just like a blob of thoughts combining with one another to form odd moments in my head its kind of weird...i go from like ooooh i wana play dinky bomb to how many perfect squares are in my house i totally wana take adderall orsomehitng right now just like once to see if itll really help me cuz i have so much stuff in me i dont know that itd help and then i hear people get kinda cranky when they take it...dont wana do anything or somthing, odnt quite remembr...thats another thing i cant like..remember stuff how i used to. crazy formulas thatll be useful once in my life if ever...but its stuff i like so i try and hold on to it, memories are all we have or something ......my chest hurts sooom uch propping up my arms on the desk is way uncomfortable my back is kind of sore but not too much...cant get over eddie cortez he go pretty fucking big...but only odin 345 courtesy of the special protein of course..y would u take that crap, but wutever...lotsa fellas i hear are getting pretty big which focourse i annoying cuz im here doin this crap..could be goin to the gym...if ionly had a damn 24hrtifness membership so yea i saw a cool butterfly im not sure when ive been back here for a while now just realizing i guess but wutever i dont wana do anything and i wana d oeverything o need organization a lot...never been to good at that, tryhing to keep everything up in my head i figure wutever out sooner or later so its cool i guess. its worked out the way its meant to be done ya.i cant freaking scratch my back cuz of my damn chest the only downside ot working out i suppose
that i can think of right now anywys but it feels kinda cool sort of...not too badjust sitting here ive got like a hairache and too much light gets in my room in the mornings and its really hot always wakes me up...otherwise im sure id be sleeping for a lot longer...5 or 6 like not so recently but sort of i still have my crap in lubock get that soon maybe i need a break from just everything i wana just go away for a while til i feel bettter about stuff but im sure id only go back to the way i was the way i am how i am is weird i think i cant explain i guess ud have to be me right and not soemthing id put on anyone not thats its bad just really odd an extrovertive introver or something everything about me seems contradictory or something likes and dilikes but it all hcnage just depending on how i wake up.. yea. that usually sets the point of the day, if i wake up to a phone call its usually like a busy day or something ...wake up to yelling definiely not a good day for me, so y should it be a good day for the peopole around me, ruin there day for some comfort...misery likes companmny sorta thing.but im sure the poing im making doesnt exist im not one for making points i point things out yea mistakes and such i hate making mistakes s o much especially when its soemthing i think i know quite a bit about...ive held my tongue a lot lately in hopes that poeple "family" owuld act different but it doesnt happen everyone is doing there own thing and dont really pay attention or make the effort to show that they are and maybe be less bitchy or loud or something not the person id of htougth it was either . so people annoy me i feel kind of funny like energized but tired typing with my eyes lsoed probly lost of mistkaes yea heh wutever i cant do anything and it feels so fucking restricting i mean i can go out but i dbnt wana go anywhere i wana watch a movie with the volume as high as it can go as to drown everything and everyone out..but nope, gavethat freedom up for somethng "better" myabe ill get it back some time ssoon or not...they need to go on like a month vacation and die or something cuz this aint the ticket ha james is a mad man and then like ill be okay cuz theres pretty muc h no more caring no family obligations nothing of that sort free to wtuever not that id go crazy with drugs and alcohol and such just pretty much wut i had with more benifits i guess so i started out just to make a quot then a little more and a little more and now i cant stop typing and its waking up my dog and someone upsttairs it walking or soemthing im sure not gonna let th dog out cuz its not my fuvcking responsibility didnt want the damrn thing but wutever soemtines coming hahahahha fucker awaken from your slumber by the damn dog u paid and outrageous amount of money for im sure juust cuz you feel obligated ...obligations fuck em fuck evrythng i jsut dont want to care adn for the mosr part i dont htink i do until something happens to prove otherwise ill sitck with that cuz i can...............i totally need somehting to happen cuz this isnt working out as planned temporary distractions i totally keep most everythign to myslef parents have no clue as to the things that go thru my head, im sure theyd be quite ditsturbed if they knew wut a good catholice upbringing htey have provided its the bestandworst dogs still barking probly has to pee or somtehing but im not sayin a word cuz u should beeable ot figures it out and ignore wut i say anywayss im sure im way fucking smarete than any of the mwere at my age not as mature more cynical woohoo i abosllutely love it and dont know y the ring yea im sorry right NO NOT ONE FUCKING BIT i wonder how i came to be how i am i mean it hink someone else had been in my shoes they d be just fine for the most part but nope.. not this fucking guy fun fun stuff still need chess but ya i suck i knoew i can beat james i think maybe yea or not i have to one day tho dog shtut up oh well and there it goes i feed it sooooooo much crap its spoile doenst eat its own food hahahaha waste of money biatch or something it eatss more junkfood than i do it ate two burger patiites yesterday and its like 5 pounds or something im gonan make it fat fucking jungle bood 2 pisses me off... fucking dinesy to ruin a good thing but im thingkin to be d i go cuz this is going absolutely nowhere...well not where i would like it to how will i be in like 30 years ....sitl alive???? crazy senile????oh i ho0pe i will be a huge fuckign burden on someone thats for sure