just a few questions...
Lets start with WHY...
Why wasnt it me on the court...
Why wasnt it me sinking the 3s in our games...
Why wasnt it me even just bench warming...
Why wasnt it me even just watching from the bleechers...
Why cant I run and play with my puppy with out multiple pain killers...
Why cant I run and do the stuff teenage girls do without pain meds...
Why do the people you feel SOOOOOOOOOOO close with move SOOOOOOOOOO far away...
Why does my daddy need SOOOOOO many surgeries...
Why cant I be normal...
Why do SOOOOOOOO many people hate me...
Why do my 'frinds' always turn their backs on me in my darkest houres...
Why cant I always be there to protect Lexi when shes in danger...
Why cant Lexi always be at my side...
Why do I only see her in my mind or on the tv screen...
Why do I have theas deseses...
Why does it seem like everything I do goes wrong...
Why is there so much more things that I want answers to that cant be answerd...
Why dont people love me...
Now theres a few whys... now WHAT IF...
What if those things were true...
What if I didnt mess up my ankle...
What if my life wasnt swirling with SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many questions that I dont know what to do with...
What if I could be with everyone who I love...
What if the people I love loved me back...
What if I didnt feel like a pile of shit that got ran over... (not that I wold know how that feels)
What if I could answer all my questions...
What if I had no questions...
What if I had time to type them all...
Could...
Could I live without people that love me... Am I???
Could I go on if somthing terrible happend to Lex and I want there to help her...
Could I have the compassity to kill people or myself... not that I would...
Could I go one month without crying... or doubting...
Could I live without my school 'friends'...
Could there really be life after love...
Could I really be able to ask all the questions I wanted too...
Could I be there if Lexi needed me...
Could I pass Math...
Could I be who/how I want to be...
Could I love as I want to be loved...
Thequestions go on for houres and houres... I can explain who overwhelmed I am... I dont know exactly why... but I just do... to much uncertanlys I guess... Or to much time to think not haveing to think abot big school stuff... just about how much fun I was having with Heather... I dont know... But I do know I have to go... I might type more questions later... If you can give me ANYthing to help... PLEAS... Just type something... you can remain anonymous... Or you dont have to.. I would rather not... but if you want... but PLEAS!!! HELP ME!!!!
Why wasnt it me on the court...
Why wasnt it me sinking the 3s in our games...
Why wasnt it me even just bench warming...
Why wasnt it me even just watching from the bleechers...
Why cant I run and play with my puppy with out multiple pain killers...
Why cant I run and do the stuff teenage girls do without pain meds...
Why do the people you feel SOOOOOOOOOOO close with move SOOOOOOOOOO far away...
Why does my daddy need SOOOOOO many surgeries...
Why cant I be normal...
Why do SOOOOOOOO many people hate me...
Why do my 'frinds' always turn their backs on me in my darkest houres...
Why cant I always be there to protect Lexi when shes in danger...
Why cant Lexi always be at my side...
Why do I only see her in my mind or on the tv screen...
Why do I have theas deseses...
Why does it seem like everything I do goes wrong...
Why is there so much more things that I want answers to that cant be answerd...
Why dont people love me...
Now theres a few whys... now WHAT IF...
What if those things were true...
What if I didnt mess up my ankle...
What if my life wasnt swirling with SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many questions that I dont know what to do with...
What if I could be with everyone who I love...
What if the people I love loved me back...
What if I didnt feel like a pile of shit that got ran over... (not that I wold know how that feels)
What if I could answer all my questions...
What if I had no questions...
What if I had time to type them all...
Could...
Could I live without people that love me... Am I???
Could I go on if somthing terrible happend to Lex and I want there to help her...
Could I have the compassity to kill people or myself... not that I would...
Could I go one month without crying... or doubting...
Could I live without my school 'friends'...
Could there really be life after love...
Could I really be able to ask all the questions I wanted too...
Could I be there if Lexi needed me...
Could I pass Math...
Could I be who/how I want to be...
Could I love as I want to be loved...
Thequestions go on for houres and houres... I can explain who overwhelmed I am... I dont know exactly why... but I just do... to much uncertanlys I guess... Or to much time to think not haveing to think abot big school stuff... just about how much fun I was having with Heather... I dont know... But I do know I have to go... I might type more questions later... If you can give me ANYthing to help... PLEAS... Just type something... you can remain anonymous... Or you dont have to.. I would rather not... but if you want... but PLEAS!!! HELP ME!!!!