I hate Mrs. Johnson
Okay, this morning started out pretty well, I woke around 6:45 and got up took a shower but my stomach was growling. It was clearly evident that I was hungry but I didn’t really feel like eating cause my stomach is becoming too suspicious through my clothing. But anyway, I got ready for school and no frustrations, no arguments, no fights about anything this morning. I thought today was going to float by smoothly. I was feeling pretty good until 2nd FUCKING period! Mrs. Johnson=AKA-Bitch! Well all at first she wasn’t so bad. We had an assembly at 10:15 and I didn’t know it was going to start then so I didn’t bring my book to class. Along with four other kids had the same truthful excuse of mine but Mrs. Johnson blows up about every little fucking thing. So, she had to go off and express thoroughly about her fucking rules and how we have to bring our books everyday. I figured we were leaving first thing in the period. Well, I was wrong and wanted to get my book so I could work, then after getting my book and I begin to work she ask me what I’m working on and I tell her and she expects me to have a whole section done right there. Well I couldn’t find my notebook for her class to give her all my assignments cause I haven’t turned in anything in two months. I’ve just been worrying about a lot of other things. Well, I’ve been doing a lot of her work and she believes I sit in her class and not do a damn thing just cause there is no evidence of progression. I have so much work for her but I just wasn’t possessing it right then.
So she goes and pulls me out of class and talks to me about a meeting she had with my step dad and she goes off and starts FUCKING PUTTING ME DOWN! She tells me “by your pace I know you don’t want to graduate, you have no ambitions or dreams to become someone more.” God, that killed me right there and she kept talking a little more and it took it to realization and to heart as well. I didn’t mean to take it so hard, but I did. After she got done speaking I told her “you really put me down when you said, “I feel that you don’t want to graduate” and I couldn’t help myself and I just broke down and cried in front of her and she seemed not to care that much. But I told her I do want to graduate but some things take me a little longer. I’m not the brightest child to potential but I feel like I am trying but maybe not my best. So that is wha6t I will do. I am going to slow down my social life and get the hell out of school. I don’t want to be in High School for 6 years. But I was really pissed that she broke me down like that. She told me to go to the bathroom and take my time in there just to clear my tears. I was kind of embarrassed cause my buddy Brad was taking a piss and saw me crying. I just turned my back to him and faced the wall and kept on and I don’t think he quite knew what to say… so he just assumed it was about Mrs. Bitch, I mean Johnson. He was right and she had done almost the same thing to him except he didn’t get crushed down like I did. God-damnit! I’m just a fucking Pussy. Well, no, I take that back, that’s the first time I have cried over something someone said. I don’t cry much, if I cry, shit bottles up to much inside of me and I explode…
Okay, that’s it for the emotional bullshit of my day. God, I fucking hate Mrs. Johnson. I don’t blame her for the lack of work I’ve done, I blame her for being the heartless, cold-hearted winch she is. She is the Wicked Witch of the Fucking West!
I liked her all at first but now I just hate her for cutting my confidence!
Well, last Monday was fun and I wish I could live moments like that everyday and just relatively like them, instead of the tortures of home and school. I had gone with Carol Monday. She picked me up around 11:00 and I went to go wake up Missy cause she was still asleep. Her light was out and I went to her room and jumped on top of her and bounced up and down and hit her in the head with different stuffed animals. I finally drug her out of bed and we hungout and played basketball and Missy was a H-O and I was a H-O and I think Carol actually got to H-O-R when we played H-O-R-S-E! It was fun, then we went inside and went to Carol’s bed and we all laid there under the cover’s and looked at pictures of Missy and her kids and Carol and just other people. I enjoyed Missy the way she laid next to me. I think I think I like her, but I don’t know for sure. We are going to try to go to the movies this weekend. But Missy had her body close to mine and she just laid her head on my shoulder and I haven’t had a girl do that with me in so LONG… I loved that and then Carol got a phone call and Missy and me just laid there and at one point we were both under the covers completely and glared at each other and I just wanted to kiss her but I was unsure with myself first. I have problems, I know. But she looked really cute with her hair up and two banes lingering in her eyes. I love the “hair in the eyes look for chicks. But, not accidental, the haircut has to be right and it’s always in her eyes. I’m weird, but that’s what I like. I’m growing my hair and it’s going to drape over my eyes and it’s going to rock.
“Under Oath”
A Boy Brushed Red.... Living In Black And White
Can you feel your heartbeat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
You've done this wrong
It's too far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that I'm just a fool for you
I am just a fool for you
Here is where we both feel wrong
Tonight's your last chance to
Do exactly what you want to
And this could be my night
This is what makes me feel alive
Makes you feel alive
Here is where we both go wrong
So tie me up
And toss this key
'Cause for now we're
Living in this moment
And we both ignore the truth
Its all over
Its all over
I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes
[chorus]
Your lungs have failed and they both stopped breathing
My heart is dead and its way past beating
Something has gone terribly wrong
I'm scared, you're scared, we're scared of this
I never thought we'd make it out alive
I never told you but its all in your goodbyes
It's all in your goodbyes
Well look who's dying now
Slit wrist less sleeping with the girl next door
I always knew you were such a sucker for that
It doesn’t matter what you say
You never mattered anyway
Never mattered anyway
In this moment that we both ignore the truth
It's all over
It's all over
I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes
[chorus]
Don't shake, i hate to see you tremble
Trembling you've lost your touch
Haven't you run so addicted
[chorus]
Fuck this… I’m feeling pain now and I’m depressed because of Mrs. Johnson and I don’t feel like typing anymore.
Good-fucking-BYE! This Post Ends!
Carol-p.s.-For my currently, put Currently Listening to Under Oath, The Changing of Times-song title-187 stops today.
So she goes and pulls me out of class and talks to me about a meeting she had with my step dad and she goes off and starts FUCKING PUTTING ME DOWN! She tells me “by your pace I know you don’t want to graduate, you have no ambitions or dreams to become someone more.” God, that killed me right there and she kept talking a little more and it took it to realization and to heart as well. I didn’t mean to take it so hard, but I did. After she got done speaking I told her “you really put me down when you said, “I feel that you don’t want to graduate” and I couldn’t help myself and I just broke down and cried in front of her and she seemed not to care that much. But I told her I do want to graduate but some things take me a little longer. I’m not the brightest child to potential but I feel like I am trying but maybe not my best. So that is wha6t I will do. I am going to slow down my social life and get the hell out of school. I don’t want to be in High School for 6 years. But I was really pissed that she broke me down like that. She told me to go to the bathroom and take my time in there just to clear my tears. I was kind of embarrassed cause my buddy Brad was taking a piss and saw me crying. I just turned my back to him and faced the wall and kept on and I don’t think he quite knew what to say… so he just assumed it was about Mrs. Bitch, I mean Johnson. He was right and she had done almost the same thing to him except he didn’t get crushed down like I did. God-damnit! I’m just a fucking Pussy. Well, no, I take that back, that’s the first time I have cried over something someone said. I don’t cry much, if I cry, shit bottles up to much inside of me and I explode…
Okay, that’s it for the emotional bullshit of my day. God, I fucking hate Mrs. Johnson. I don’t blame her for the lack of work I’ve done, I blame her for being the heartless, cold-hearted winch she is. She is the Wicked Witch of the Fucking West!
I liked her all at first but now I just hate her for cutting my confidence!
Well, last Monday was fun and I wish I could live moments like that everyday and just relatively like them, instead of the tortures of home and school. I had gone with Carol Monday. She picked me up around 11:00 and I went to go wake up Missy cause she was still asleep. Her light was out and I went to her room and jumped on top of her and bounced up and down and hit her in the head with different stuffed animals. I finally drug her out of bed and we hungout and played basketball and Missy was a H-O and I was a H-O and I think Carol actually got to H-O-R when we played H-O-R-S-E! It was fun, then we went inside and went to Carol’s bed and we all laid there under the cover’s and looked at pictures of Missy and her kids and Carol and just other people. I enjoyed Missy the way she laid next to me. I think I think I like her, but I don’t know for sure. We are going to try to go to the movies this weekend. But Missy had her body close to mine and she just laid her head on my shoulder and I haven’t had a girl do that with me in so LONG… I loved that and then Carol got a phone call and Missy and me just laid there and at one point we were both under the covers completely and glared at each other and I just wanted to kiss her but I was unsure with myself first. I have problems, I know. But she looked really cute with her hair up and two banes lingering in her eyes. I love the “hair in the eyes look for chicks. But, not accidental, the haircut has to be right and it’s always in her eyes. I’m weird, but that’s what I like. I’m growing my hair and it’s going to drape over my eyes and it’s going to rock.
“Under Oath”
A Boy Brushed Red.... Living In Black And White
Can you feel your heartbeat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
You've done this wrong
It's too far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that I'm just a fool for you
I am just a fool for you
Here is where we both feel wrong
Tonight's your last chance to
Do exactly what you want to
And this could be my night
This is what makes me feel alive
Makes you feel alive
Here is where we both go wrong
So tie me up
And toss this key
'Cause for now we're
Living in this moment
And we both ignore the truth
Its all over
Its all over
I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes
[chorus]
Your lungs have failed and they both stopped breathing
My heart is dead and its way past beating
Something has gone terribly wrong
I'm scared, you're scared, we're scared of this
I never thought we'd make it out alive
I never told you but its all in your goodbyes
It's all in your goodbyes
Well look who's dying now
Slit wrist less sleeping with the girl next door
I always knew you were such a sucker for that
It doesn’t matter what you say
You never mattered anyway
Never mattered anyway
In this moment that we both ignore the truth
It's all over
It's all over
I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes
[chorus]
Don't shake, i hate to see you tremble
Trembling you've lost your touch
Haven't you run so addicted
[chorus]
Fuck this… I’m feeling pain now and I’m depressed because of Mrs. Johnson and I don’t feel like typing anymore.
Good-fucking-BYE! This Post Ends!
Carol-p.s.-For my currently, put Currently Listening to Under Oath, The Changing of Times-song title-187 stops today.