Friends...
So I spend most everyday with Jolene. Some days its nice just do things with her and me. So we do that. Typical dating.
Then other days, there is soccer and we both get invited, so we go play, then go places after, sometimes with others like Lauren, Redmond, and Erin.
Poker: I took her along all the time because she enjoyed the group of people and had fun. I didn't take her just 'cause I needed to spend time with her. We both would have been fine not there together. She did come along though because she liked the time, the people, and enjoyed it. It wasn't just to be with me. She liked the others there like Redmond, Steve, Rusty, Will, and the laughs provided. No one seemed to change how they acted and we still had tons of laughs/fun at poker. If someone thought it changed that much or didn't want her there, they should have said something. I'm mature and can understand having just a 'guys night' , but no one mentioned it. I am sorry if it affected anyone, I wish you would have just said something because I couldn't see that anyone cared or that it was different. It's no ones fault, mine nor others, it just is what it is. If we have one more before I leave, just let me know if you care that she is there or if you are fine with her there.
After that, some say we don't do anything with anyone else. Well, honsetly, besides Rosa and Steve, no one else has asked me to do anything without Jolene.
Rosa: I am sorry for not doing stuff. As much of an ass as you can be to others, you and I have always been friends and at least you have cared to try to do stuff with me. We both are misunderstood by others a lot and are both good people. I apologize greatly. In the beginning it was because I honestly didn't have the money at the time. Then you started acting very fiesty with me, at least when I saw you, so I kind of felt like you didn't like me much or something. You explained why you did that last night and I understand that now. So, I do feel bad about that. Hopefully we can at least put that behind us and maybe do something before I go on Thursday. Hopefully as well, we can keep in touch. If you feel we can't do that anymore, you can just tell me.
Rusty: we've been friends for 4 or 5 years and done tons of things like soccer, sporting events, and poker. However, we've never done much besides those things. That's just been how our friendship has been: talking a ton in school as well as sport things together. You must admitt, besides that, before this summer, we didn't do much else. So I think we really are still just as good of friends as we were before. If you had wanted me not to bring Jolene along to something, I am sorry. I really didn't think you cared and like Brewer games, we still talked, joked around, and all that. If you didn't care then okay, I didn't need to say all that. However, you've been one of my closet friends, so I just want to make sure we're cool and can stay close. :)
Steve: we've been cool since 7th grade and good friends. I know we've bounced back and forth with how much we hang out, but it just happened like that as we both hung out with some different people. But we're still close and have good times like old whenever we hang out. I definately want to keep in touch.
Emalee : we have our own unique relationship and I know we'll stay in touch. I don't need to say anything more to you than that, don't feel left out. I hope we can stay in touch. :)
After that, I have friends like Joel, Redmond and Jim Kohn who I will try to keep in touch with 'cause they are my friends who also know me better.
Anyone else, in reality, it's not that I don't like you, we're just not close friends. Everyone else that I've hung out with, joked with, and had good times: I like you and hope the best for you. We are friends, but not close you know? We all have people we have opened up to and who actually know more than what we've learned about each other in school. However, in reality, we haven't grown close over the last 4 years, so we have no basis to try to stay close friends. However, people like Megan, Kaity, Krysten, Allison, Peter (sorry if I forgot anyone else): I do hope we keep in touch. We have seen each other lots in high school and I like you all. It's unfortunate that we haven't been able to know each other as better friends, but that's okay. We've hung out together and been in classes for so long, we do know each other some, just not the deeper kind of friendship. It won't be like talking a few times a week, or even once a week, because we just aren't that close. However, I do hope we can keep in touch online or in LJ/facebook/myspace because we are friends.
I hope you all understand this and see what I mean. I know it seems weird, but it's kind of a reality from high school that each of us has created a large group of friends. Some of these people we've opened up to and talk to ton while others have just been part of many of the same experiences. However, as we move on to college, things aren't going to magically be created between those of us who haven't know each other that well before. The few people we are close to, we will try the hardest to stay close to for the rest of our lives. The other friends, we will try to keep in touch, have some laughs while talking in whatever way we do, keep up-to-date with how their lives are going, and that's about it.
Then other days, there is soccer and we both get invited, so we go play, then go places after, sometimes with others like Lauren, Redmond, and Erin.
Poker: I took her along all the time because she enjoyed the group of people and had fun. I didn't take her just 'cause I needed to spend time with her. We both would have been fine not there together. She did come along though because she liked the time, the people, and enjoyed it. It wasn't just to be with me. She liked the others there like Redmond, Steve, Rusty, Will, and the laughs provided. No one seemed to change how they acted and we still had tons of laughs/fun at poker. If someone thought it changed that much or didn't want her there, they should have said something. I'm mature and can understand having just a 'guys night' , but no one mentioned it. I am sorry if it affected anyone, I wish you would have just said something because I couldn't see that anyone cared or that it was different. It's no ones fault, mine nor others, it just is what it is. If we have one more before I leave, just let me know if you care that she is there or if you are fine with her there.
After that, some say we don't do anything with anyone else. Well, honsetly, besides Rosa and Steve, no one else has asked me to do anything without Jolene.
Rosa: I am sorry for not doing stuff. As much of an ass as you can be to others, you and I have always been friends and at least you have cared to try to do stuff with me. We both are misunderstood by others a lot and are both good people. I apologize greatly. In the beginning it was because I honestly didn't have the money at the time. Then you started acting very fiesty with me, at least when I saw you, so I kind of felt like you didn't like me much or something. You explained why you did that last night and I understand that now. So, I do feel bad about that. Hopefully we can at least put that behind us and maybe do something before I go on Thursday. Hopefully as well, we can keep in touch. If you feel we can't do that anymore, you can just tell me.
Rusty: we've been friends for 4 or 5 years and done tons of things like soccer, sporting events, and poker. However, we've never done much besides those things. That's just been how our friendship has been: talking a ton in school as well as sport things together. You must admitt, besides that, before this summer, we didn't do much else. So I think we really are still just as good of friends as we were before. If you had wanted me not to bring Jolene along to something, I am sorry. I really didn't think you cared and like Brewer games, we still talked, joked around, and all that. If you didn't care then okay, I didn't need to say all that. However, you've been one of my closet friends, so I just want to make sure we're cool and can stay close. :)
Steve: we've been cool since 7th grade and good friends. I know we've bounced back and forth with how much we hang out, but it just happened like that as we both hung out with some different people. But we're still close and have good times like old whenever we hang out. I definately want to keep in touch.
Emalee : we have our own unique relationship and I know we'll stay in touch. I don't need to say anything more to you than that, don't feel left out. I hope we can stay in touch. :)
After that, I have friends like Joel, Redmond and Jim Kohn who I will try to keep in touch with 'cause they are my friends who also know me better.
Anyone else, in reality, it's not that I don't like you, we're just not close friends. Everyone else that I've hung out with, joked with, and had good times: I like you and hope the best for you. We are friends, but not close you know? We all have people we have opened up to and who actually know more than what we've learned about each other in school. However, in reality, we haven't grown close over the last 4 years, so we have no basis to try to stay close friends. However, people like Megan, Kaity, Krysten, Allison, Peter (sorry if I forgot anyone else): I do hope we keep in touch. We have seen each other lots in high school and I like you all. It's unfortunate that we haven't been able to know each other as better friends, but that's okay. We've hung out together and been in classes for so long, we do know each other some, just not the deeper kind of friendship. It won't be like talking a few times a week, or even once a week, because we just aren't that close. However, I do hope we can keep in touch online or in LJ/facebook/myspace because we are friends.
I hope you all understand this and see what I mean. I know it seems weird, but it's kind of a reality from high school that each of us has created a large group of friends. Some of these people we've opened up to and talk to ton while others have just been part of many of the same experiences. However, as we move on to college, things aren't going to magically be created between those of us who haven't know each other that well before. The few people we are close to, we will try the hardest to stay close to for the rest of our lives. The other friends, we will try to keep in touch, have some laughs while talking in whatever way we do, keep up-to-date with how their lives are going, and that's about it.