Hmm...I done something, hope I don't regret it....
I have just sent an email to my boss saying I would like to quit my job. hmmm....damn me acting on impulse before fully thinking things out (well if consdering it all the quiet moments I had when not reading my book counts as not fully thinking it out).
Its a very impractical way of doing things I know, as I haven't done anything about looking for another job, or got in contact with the college to see if I am even gonna be studying in September (I'm holding out hope for that though....I really need to have that hehe).
Then again when have I ever been practical. I quit my last job on a sudden impulse and was then unemployed for a year.
Although I feel it was I had to take action on it, if I had waited to hear something from the college it would have been too late for me to comfortably do anything about quitting my job for it if do get on the course as it owuld have been too close to the date for cigar school, which seems like quite a no turning back point in a way. This way I can comfortably do it (admittedly with an email packed full of lies about the quitting) with telling myself they can find someone else to replace me in time to send that other person to cigar school. It would probably be better for that person too, as it would be like training right when they start their job.
Oh tomorrow is so gonna be uncomfortable at work.....
Although there is another consideration here, one that probably makes me seem utterly insane, but theres a pattern to it that appeals to me. I started the job on the 13th of the month during mercury retrograde.....I have sent an email to quit after working the 13th of the month during mercury retrograde.....I know it is utterly insane, but there is something about that that calls to me and appeals to me.
Also yay, I have just finished reading Interview With The Vampire, I had forgotten how much I love this book, how much I can relate in places to Louis, the way he doesn't really act, but just reacts mostly, the over contemplating things and the way he describes that for a rare moment it was like his mind was quiet. And also my love for the character of Armand, he is easily my favourite of Anne Rices vampires.
And they were my most profound feelings taking a shape they could never have taken had I not spoken them, had I not thought them out this way in a conversation with another. I thought myself then possessed of a passive mind, in a sense. I mean that my mind could only pull itself together, formulate thought out of the muddle of longing and pain, when it was touched by another mind and driven to form conclusions.
I have a passive mind...that comment really stikes with me, I really understand it.
"I said that I want you. I want you more than anything in the world" he repeated... ..."You want this of me, yet you don't come to me," he said. "There things you want to know, and you don't ask. You see Claudia slipping away from you, yet you seem powerless to prevent it, and then you would hasten it, and yet you do nothing."
"I don't understand my own feelings. Perhaps they are clearer to you than they are to me...."
"You don't begin to know what a mystery you are!"
Another bit that for some reason struck me, I think I can give this impression perhaps, I'm not entirely sure, but that I don't understand my own self and consider other people seem to know my feelings better than I do, not sure if I am a mystery or not though....plus it could just be that it has Armand saying 'I want you' hehe oooh urr *shivers* ermm yeah ahem....
Its a very impractical way of doing things I know, as I haven't done anything about looking for another job, or got in contact with the college to see if I am even gonna be studying in September (I'm holding out hope for that though....I really need to have that hehe).
Then again when have I ever been practical. I quit my last job on a sudden impulse and was then unemployed for a year.
Although I feel it was I had to take action on it, if I had waited to hear something from the college it would have been too late for me to comfortably do anything about quitting my job for it if do get on the course as it owuld have been too close to the date for cigar school, which seems like quite a no turning back point in a way. This way I can comfortably do it (admittedly with an email packed full of lies about the quitting) with telling myself they can find someone else to replace me in time to send that other person to cigar school. It would probably be better for that person too, as it would be like training right when they start their job.
Oh tomorrow is so gonna be uncomfortable at work.....
Although there is another consideration here, one that probably makes me seem utterly insane, but theres a pattern to it that appeals to me. I started the job on the 13th of the month during mercury retrograde.....I have sent an email to quit after working the 13th of the month during mercury retrograde.....I know it is utterly insane, but there is something about that that calls to me and appeals to me.
Also yay, I have just finished reading Interview With The Vampire, I had forgotten how much I love this book, how much I can relate in places to Louis, the way he doesn't really act, but just reacts mostly, the over contemplating things and the way he describes that for a rare moment it was like his mind was quiet. And also my love for the character of Armand, he is easily my favourite of Anne Rices vampires.
And they were my most profound feelings taking a shape they could never have taken had I not spoken them, had I not thought them out this way in a conversation with another. I thought myself then possessed of a passive mind, in a sense. I mean that my mind could only pull itself together, formulate thought out of the muddle of longing and pain, when it was touched by another mind and driven to form conclusions.
I have a passive mind...that comment really stikes with me, I really understand it.
"I said that I want you. I want you more than anything in the world" he repeated... ..."You want this of me, yet you don't come to me," he said. "There things you want to know, and you don't ask. You see Claudia slipping away from you, yet you seem powerless to prevent it, and then you would hasten it, and yet you do nothing."
"I don't understand my own feelings. Perhaps they are clearer to you than they are to me...."
"You don't begin to know what a mystery you are!"
Another bit that for some reason struck me, I think I can give this impression perhaps, I'm not entirely sure, but that I don't understand my own self and consider other people seem to know my feelings better than I do, not sure if I am a mystery or not though....plus it could just be that it has Armand saying 'I want you' hehe oooh urr *shivers* ermm yeah ahem....