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I feel detatched. I feel separated from my own life. There are people I want to talk to. People I want to see. things I want to do. But I won't do any of that. i just sit here. I eat, sleep, watch TV, play video games, and do my homework. That's it. I want to get out of here. I want to become a part of all of your lives again. But I won't. I'll just continue to sit in my house and do absolutely nothing. I hate this feeling of being bottled up. And I know that I can change that, but I won't. I'm going to get my license a week after school ends. But it doesn't matter. It's not like I'm going to drive anywhere this summer. For one thing, I will only have $30 to buy gas with all summer. And for another, I just won't get off my butt and give myself a place to go. I just feel worthless is all. I've been separated from the world for way too long, and I want out. But I won't get out, because I can't, won't. I just want to start living my life.