who are you?

[mr_bi_polarbear]

what drives me? i think most people are driven by either fear or hope. when i was a kid, i used to be deathly affraid of the second coming of christ or judgement. it coupled me to the religion of my family for fear that i would be cast into eternal shame.
i don't know if i am affraid of gods wrath as much as i hope he is understanding. and i dont know if which god is more powerful. is it moral to choose for myself if i am incorrect in the end?
what drives god?