A Man Reborn...
I have had it... Stop this life, I want to get off. I can't just die, so I have to have a new one. I don't have the money to buy a new one, so I guess, I will have to work for it.
I am tired of my situation. I am tired of being sick. I am tired of being poor. I am tired of being lonely. I am tired of being... tired.
I have to lose weight. I am going to start back on the diet that helped me before. I will start walking in my neighborhood. If I have to carry a sword, so be it. I will do my yoga, and I will meditate.
Ok, so the meditation thing bridges to my mental and spiritual wellbeing. I need to work on that too. I have to get back on the path. I will start an educational schedule, to help me catch up on all the things I am supposed to know... yeah, I don't know everything. It's a shock to me too.
I will start creating art. Everyday I will draw, sculpt, sew, paint, or create something. If I can sell some of my art, then so be it, but that is not the point.
I should start writing, but not like I did before. I am going to pick one book, and work on it, until I think it is done. I have many projects I want to write, but I will hopefully have plenty of time for it in the future. If I don't, then it wasn't meant to be.
I am going to make some new clothes, shave everyday, keep my nails done, and build some confidence in how I look. I know I'm cute, I don't know why I fight it. lol
Usually I complain that I need to make money, or I need to start a business. I say I have to do this and that, and they are things that would be almost impossible to do in my present situation. It finally dawned on my, why exactly I never get those things moving. If you want to go somewhere, you need a road. I need to build my road, and then I can move ahead. If the road itself is sound, then there will be few obstacles in my way.
Ok, yeah, I sound a lot better than I did last time, but actually, I am very angry at the moment. I suppose controlling that will be my biggest job.
I am tired of my situation. I am tired of being sick. I am tired of being poor. I am tired of being lonely. I am tired of being... tired.
I have to lose weight. I am going to start back on the diet that helped me before. I will start walking in my neighborhood. If I have to carry a sword, so be it. I will do my yoga, and I will meditate.
Ok, so the meditation thing bridges to my mental and spiritual wellbeing. I need to work on that too. I have to get back on the path. I will start an educational schedule, to help me catch up on all the things I am supposed to know... yeah, I don't know everything. It's a shock to me too.
I will start creating art. Everyday I will draw, sculpt, sew, paint, or create something. If I can sell some of my art, then so be it, but that is not the point.
I should start writing, but not like I did before. I am going to pick one book, and work on it, until I think it is done. I have many projects I want to write, but I will hopefully have plenty of time for it in the future. If I don't, then it wasn't meant to be.
I am going to make some new clothes, shave everyday, keep my nails done, and build some confidence in how I look. I know I'm cute, I don't know why I fight it. lol
Usually I complain that I need to make money, or I need to start a business. I say I have to do this and that, and they are things that would be almost impossible to do in my present situation. It finally dawned on my, why exactly I never get those things moving. If you want to go somewhere, you need a road. I need to build my road, and then I can move ahead. If the road itself is sound, then there will be few obstacles in my way.
Ok, yeah, I sound a lot better than I did last time, but actually, I am very angry at the moment. I suppose controlling that will be my biggest job.