To whom do I turn when they all turn away?
On the show Queer as Folk, Brian Kinney said, "There’s only two kinds of straight people in this world: the ones that hate you to your face and the ones that hate you behind your back."
I have never believed that. I have too many friends that truly love me no matter what. Also, I know there are a lot of people out there that hate me just for who I am, but when you have a friend that turns on you and expects you to understand, what do you do?
All last season I asked my friend to tell me when he was playing a game so I could go. He never even got around to telling me the name of his team until the season was over. I joked that he just didn't want a gay guy cheering for him, but he said he just forgot or he changed the subject. Tonight he told me he just got home from a game. I asked when the next one was so I could go, and he said next season. This was the last game. I was pissed. I told him it was true all along. He just didn't want some faggot in the stands cheering for him. I guess he thought someone might find out he knows me.
He can talk to me about ghosts, and he can talk about cars. He will even sit and tell me his girl troubles and I give him the best advice I can. He just can't be my friend in public.
A while back, a friend of mine told me that she was against gay marriage. I was taken aback, but she acted like I should understand. "Homosexuals are condemned by the bible, how can they take part in a ceremony that is based in the christian religion? You understand..." I asked, how about atheists, and she said they shouldn't be able to marry either.
Another friend of mine said that I would make a great father. She said it was a pity that I couldn't because I would probably never decide to marry a woman. I said I might have a kid and raise it with a man. She said, "oh no, that wouldn't be right. It's not healthy to raise a child in that sort of environment. You understand..."
My aunt's fiance is an asshole. He doesn't like me because I'm gay. He doesn't like any gay people. He questions my cousins after I talk to them to see if I talked about gay things, in case I am trying to convert them or something. He says things like, "that's as wrong as two boys in bed." My aunt says, "well, that's just how he talks, and he's not going to change that. You understand..." I don't say things like, "he's as happy as a redneck with a whole mess of 'possum" around him do I?
A really good friend, one of my oldest, calls her b/f a faggot when she's mad at him because it pisses him off. She said that she just does, and I have to deal with it. I guess I should understand. I don't understand. I don't see why I am different or why it is so bad. Also, why do I have to just understand that that is just how it is. I refuse to understand.
I know people who are ok with me, but are not ok with people who are more flamboyant. Maybe I'm ok as long as I am not too gay. I know people who still think all I need is to fuck a chick. I am just confused, and after a little nookie, I will see the light. I know people who just don't think of it at all. I am their dickless friend. Maybe they have it right. Does who I fuck have anything to do with you, unless it's you I'm fucking?
I never tell people that the way they live is wrong, that they are going to hell, or that they shouldn't be allowed to have children. I know people who live lives that are unhealthy, immoral, and I certainly know people that shouldn't have children, but that is their business. Just because I get to put my dick somewhere you wish your g/f would let you, doesn't mean I am any less of a human being.
Now, when it comes down to it, do I stay friends with people like this? What do you think? I have turned the other cheek so far, but I only have so many. I have done what they won't.
Maybe I need to review some of my friendships... you understand.
I have never believed that. I have too many friends that truly love me no matter what. Also, I know there are a lot of people out there that hate me just for who I am, but when you have a friend that turns on you and expects you to understand, what do you do?
All last season I asked my friend to tell me when he was playing a game so I could go. He never even got around to telling me the name of his team until the season was over. I joked that he just didn't want a gay guy cheering for him, but he said he just forgot or he changed the subject. Tonight he told me he just got home from a game. I asked when the next one was so I could go, and he said next season. This was the last game. I was pissed. I told him it was true all along. He just didn't want some faggot in the stands cheering for him. I guess he thought someone might find out he knows me.
He can talk to me about ghosts, and he can talk about cars. He will even sit and tell me his girl troubles and I give him the best advice I can. He just can't be my friend in public.
A while back, a friend of mine told me that she was against gay marriage. I was taken aback, but she acted like I should understand. "Homosexuals are condemned by the bible, how can they take part in a ceremony that is based in the christian religion? You understand..." I asked, how about atheists, and she said they shouldn't be able to marry either.
Another friend of mine said that I would make a great father. She said it was a pity that I couldn't because I would probably never decide to marry a woman. I said I might have a kid and raise it with a man. She said, "oh no, that wouldn't be right. It's not healthy to raise a child in that sort of environment. You understand..."
My aunt's fiance is an asshole. He doesn't like me because I'm gay. He doesn't like any gay people. He questions my cousins after I talk to them to see if I talked about gay things, in case I am trying to convert them or something. He says things like, "that's as wrong as two boys in bed." My aunt says, "well, that's just how he talks, and he's not going to change that. You understand..." I don't say things like, "he's as happy as a redneck with a whole mess of 'possum" around him do I?
A really good friend, one of my oldest, calls her b/f a faggot when she's mad at him because it pisses him off. She said that she just does, and I have to deal with it. I guess I should understand. I don't understand. I don't see why I am different or why it is so bad. Also, why do I have to just understand that that is just how it is. I refuse to understand.
I know people who are ok with me, but are not ok with people who are more flamboyant. Maybe I'm ok as long as I am not too gay. I know people who still think all I need is to fuck a chick. I am just confused, and after a little nookie, I will see the light. I know people who just don't think of it at all. I am their dickless friend. Maybe they have it right. Does who I fuck have anything to do with you, unless it's you I'm fucking?
I never tell people that the way they live is wrong, that they are going to hell, or that they shouldn't be allowed to have children. I know people who live lives that are unhealthy, immoral, and I certainly know people that shouldn't have children, but that is their business. Just because I get to put my dick somewhere you wish your g/f would let you, doesn't mean I am any less of a human being.
Now, when it comes down to it, do I stay friends with people like this? What do you think? I have turned the other cheek so far, but I only have so many. I have done what they won't.
Maybe I need to review some of my friendships... you understand.