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Nov 22, 2005 00:24

It seems like all i do is argue anymore
only way i know anything is through a scream
i step out into the november air and sometimes it seems warming after a conversation
my heart and my head have a war going on and casualties are great
sometimes i wish you wouldn't have brought my dead heart back to life because i can't kill it anymore
what is my purpose in life to be miserable is that why god made me
is there a past life full of sin to blame my current one on
if i disappeared would you ask where i went
if i said goodbye would you ask why
if i said i had to go
would you even consider following
sometimes i wish for death because when you look in a casket you don't ever see anyone frowning
i seem to frown most of the time anymore
and maybe if i were dead they could somehow cut the muscle to make me smile again
if you had a choice how would you make it
one day i wish i could just go somewhere no one knows me and just start over
turn myself into that one glove in the lost and found
just disappear one day to never be found at the bottom of the box in the office of a bus stop
someone would probably miss me
but not enough to really try to find me
sometimes i wish i believed in suicide so i could but since i don't i guess i'm outta luck just gonna have to live
search the earth for a happiness that will never be found i'd sell my soul to the devil to be happy in this world
sometimes i'd like to be retarded because alot of them always seem to be happy and if they aren't they can be through the simplest action like swing or eating ice cream just be special and overjoyed to sweep the floor at mcdonalds
this isn't a cry for help i just had to tell people how i feel because no one actually listens anymore they just wait for there turn to scream
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