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What a weekend. There's something about bank holiday weekends which seem to make everything go a little crazy. I went out Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday (as I also had Tuesday off work).
Saturday was to celebrate my younger sister Catherine finishing uni. It was a really good night we went to her's first then to The Honey Club and back here to mine till 7.30am when the last people left. I eventually managed to get some sleep before heading over to Nik's to start all over again. My older sister Clare is such a liability, I swear I spend my whole time doing something for one of my siblings whenever I go out.
I do like the fact that we are all so close and as a couple of people pointed out to me over the weekend I am the glue which holds us all together but sometimes I get tired of it and don't think I've got the energy to play the middleman anymore. I'm always the fixer or to borrow one of my favorite political terms the 'powerbroker'. I have to protect them all from each other and if I wasn't here they'd all go back to fighting and not really having anything to do with each other again.
When my other brother Simon gets back from Taiwan I've already promised his best friend I'll shield him from Paul and step in when things get too much with everyone else. Occasionally I'd like to step away and watch the fireworks, just not take responsibility for it but I know that I couldn't do that. A lot of people don't get the closeness between the 6 of us because they don't have the same kind of relationships with their siblings and it's true we do have a strange family dynamic. This probably doesn't make much sense to people who don't know us but I suddenly needed to get it off my chest.
I got my stereo and Amp back today so I've got a decent music setup in my room at last.
Back to work tomorrow when I have to start my sign off process, oh joy of joys.
"Due to government economies the light at the end of the tunnel has been switched off" - That's a bit how my life feels at the moment.
Saturday was to celebrate my younger sister Catherine finishing uni. It was a really good night we went to her's first then to The Honey Club and back here to mine till 7.30am when the last people left. I eventually managed to get some sleep before heading over to Nik's to start all over again. My older sister Clare is such a liability, I swear I spend my whole time doing something for one of my siblings whenever I go out.
I do like the fact that we are all so close and as a couple of people pointed out to me over the weekend I am the glue which holds us all together but sometimes I get tired of it and don't think I've got the energy to play the middleman anymore. I'm always the fixer or to borrow one of my favorite political terms the 'powerbroker'. I have to protect them all from each other and if I wasn't here they'd all go back to fighting and not really having anything to do with each other again.
When my other brother Simon gets back from Taiwan I've already promised his best friend I'll shield him from Paul and step in when things get too much with everyone else. Occasionally I'd like to step away and watch the fireworks, just not take responsibility for it but I know that I couldn't do that. A lot of people don't get the closeness between the 6 of us because they don't have the same kind of relationships with their siblings and it's true we do have a strange family dynamic. This probably doesn't make much sense to people who don't know us but I suddenly needed to get it off my chest.
I got my stereo and Amp back today so I've got a decent music setup in my room at last.
Back to work tomorrow when I have to start my sign off process, oh joy of joys.
"Due to government economies the light at the end of the tunnel has been switched off" - That's a bit how my life feels at the moment.