meanwhile, back on earth
What a few months it's been. In the space of about a week a month and a half ago or so I broke up with D, moved, started a new semester, got fired. And that was just week one. Since then there have been some crazy moments too. And yet the oddest thing is that I'm doing really, really well. I feel good, I'm losing weight, I'm excited and happy to be here, to be me. I'm re-finding out things about myself that I had forgotten...I like concerts, being alone can be ok. And i'm having a great time recently. But I kinda feel guilty for feeling this good this quickly. I've done a crappy job of supporting D, I don't know how to..don't know what my place is.
But fundamentally under all of this is the fact that I'm doing great. I'm happy. And I'm able to look at the past and be happy of it. The last 5 1/2 years were perfect...they were exactly what they needed to be. I grew so much, and learned so much..there is not a thing I would change. And I'm glad that it's happy memories, cause those are the best.
now if I can just get over this insomnia. Haven't been asleep before 6:00 or 7:00 am in a week now..it's getting a little old. My body is wigging out on me a bit..have been going to the gym a ton to handle the stress and I've lost over 30 pounds in the past month, which is awesome, but it's also really fast weight loss. So far I'm not too worried, but...hmmm.
I'm in need of good friends, so I'm going to try and be better at updating this..and checking in on you all.
But fundamentally under all of this is the fact that I'm doing great. I'm happy. And I'm able to look at the past and be happy of it. The last 5 1/2 years were perfect...they were exactly what they needed to be. I grew so much, and learned so much..there is not a thing I would change. And I'm glad that it's happy memories, cause those are the best.
now if I can just get over this insomnia. Haven't been asleep before 6:00 or 7:00 am in a week now..it's getting a little old. My body is wigging out on me a bit..have been going to the gym a ton to handle the stress and I've lost over 30 pounds in the past month, which is awesome, but it's also really fast weight loss. So far I'm not too worried, but...hmmm.
I'm in need of good friends, so I'm going to try and be better at updating this..and checking in on you all.