I don't want to grow up...
I was a little kid today. I curled my hair and put it up in pigtails and wore my skirt with my tennis shoes and it was nice. and I went to the playground and I swung and looked at the clouds for a while and thought about stuff. and how even if I decided not to grow up it would be hard. becasue everybody else around you grows up and things get complicated and you don't send a note to the boys you like saying "wanna be my boifrand? yur cute" and they don't respond with "sure" and its sad that its more complicated than that. or when I was in kindergarten I made it even simpler than that I left a note in Dallas's cubby that said "I love you." and so he came up to me and was like "hey we're boyfriend and girlfriend now right?" I was totally pimp tho cuz he was in first grade and I was only in preschool. yep. big pimpin. but we broke up later cuz he called me stupid. and now I can say that I just want to kiss a boy and thats all I want because I don't want relationships anymore but my brain tells me its more complicated than that too. but i don't want a relationship. really. not this soon anyways. I don't know if the idea of a relationship will appeal to me again even if it is later. see? COMPLICATED. gosh.thats why I like baths. because nothing is complicated about a bath. bubbles+water+hott jazz music= total relaxation. that sounds good right now. and maybe I'll go do that. also. PS I got the most freaking awesome suit evar. be jealous it is hott shiny pink. :) it makes me smile.